Actress Shares How God Saved Her From Porn Industry

Ex-porn star Crissy Moran (now Crissy Outlaw) could have continued making "unlimited amounts of money." But none of it filled the emptiness she felt inside. In desperation, she cried out to God and He saved her from the adult film industry! Credit: Twitter/@iamcrissy Behind most adult film actresses you will find a heartbreaking past. Ex-porn star Crissy Moran is no different.

"I never planned on going into the sex industry, never thought of it as an option," she said.

But a string of hard knocks eventually dropped Crissy right into the adult film industry. And her incredible testimony just goes to show how God's love and grace can restore anyone and anything.

A Rough Start

Crissy grew up in chaos. Her dad was an alcoholic, and he and Crissy's mom had a terrible relationship. Eventually they divorced. In the midst of all of the turmoil on the home front, Crissy was sexually assaulted by a neighbor. With no trusted adult to confide in, Crissy kept the abuse as a dark secret. The burden sent her into a deep depression. Crissy sought escape through romantic relationships.

"I feel isolated and alone," she said. "I started to find that having relationships with men filled this emptiness I had."

At 17, Crissy gave her virginity to her boyfriend.

"He told me that if he ever got me pregnant that we would get married and have our baby," she said. "The desire in my heart - deeper than anything I ever felt - was that I wanted to be mom and a wife. I wasn't very careful when it came to being sexual with this person."

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"As a 17 year old girl who wanted nothing more than to have a family, it totally broke my heart," she said. "The depression that I had increased, the feelings of unworthiness increased."

Headed In The Wrong Direction

Crissy just barely graduated high school. From there, she started working at Hooters -- a restaurant famous for it's sexualized and scantily-clad waitresses -- and continued pursuing relationships with the wrong kind of men.

"I never felt good enough for the men I dated," she confessed. "I didn't feel beautiful because they looked at porn during sex with me."

These types of unhealthy relationships kept pushing Crissy further and further down the wrong path.

"I thought, am I not good enough for you that you can't only look at me? I felt worthless to the point that I chose porn and I said, 'One day I'm going to be one of the girls you watch on screen.'"

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Hitting Rock Bottom

Crissy became a star in no time. From 2001 to 2006, she appeared in over 50 adult movies, posed for Playboy and earned her own extremely lucrative website.

“I was making $15,000 a month just from my website,” she says. “I had months I made another $5,000 to $7,000 from shooting if I wanted to, easily. Sometimes I did phone calls for $9.99 a minute, autographed photos, panties, I’ve done that, too. There’s unlimited amounts of money I could have made.”

Even with all the money, Crissy wasn't happy. Deep down, she hated her life.

“I always wanted to get out,” she says. “Any time I did a shoot where I took my clothes off, I would feel bad.

She kept hoping someone would rescue her, but only found herself in abusive relationship after abusive relationship. Finally, at her wits end, Crissy cried out to Jesus.

"I fell on the ground in the kitchen and I just started crying," she said. "And I was like, 'God, if you're real I need to know; you have to send me a sign so that I know that you're real because everything I know about love is twisted and perverted and just not right."

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"God was there in the midst, listening to me and hearing my cry," she says.

And the very next day, God revealed himself to Crissy.

A Revelation

After her night of despair, Crissy went to visit her boyfriend at a film set. While there, a topless photo of a crew member's wife was crudely being passed around for all to see. Crissy found out her own boyfriend had shared photos of her just the previous day. But one man there named Chris caught Crissy's attention when he refused to partake in the awful behavior. In talking with him, Crissy admitted she was a porn star. Instead of responding with disapproval, the man simply asked if she knew Jesus.

"You don't have to live like this," he told her. "You can change your life. Jesus can help you, you need to repent and turn away."

Chris took Crissy outside and prayed with her. And that's when she knew she was done.

“I had a revelation of God and it changed everything. I had to leave the industry, immediately,” Crissy said.

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Standing Firm

Making a clean break is no easy task. But Crissy remained committed to her decision to leave. She started seeing a therapist and attending church regularly. She turned her life around, and even started dating a "good guy" -- Lawton Outlaw who was a youth pastor at the time. The two got married in 2013. Credit: The Kernel Sadly, there will always be haunting reminders of her past for ex-porn star Crissy Moran. Much of the contracts she signed, including one for her website, gave away any kind of ownership rights. In fact, that's fairly typical in the industry. For a long time after Crissy's change of heart, the website kept sending her checks, even though she requested they stop. She ripped each one up. Some have asked why Crissy didn't cash the checks and give the money away to charity.

“Because it was from porn. I wanted a clean break. It was what He told me to do,” she explains. “It felt like the right choice.”  

Life Restored For Ex-Porn Star Crissy Moran

Now, Crissy spends her time sharing her story hoping it will inspire and save others. She ministers to other sex industry victims, and actively speaks out about the dangers of porn. It's reach has grown so much in the "Digital Age," and so many lives are being ruined because of it. RELATED: Elizabeth Smart Speaks Out On How Porn Made Her Captivity Even Worse The stars, more often than not, are just broken people being exploited by the industry. The viewers are often oblivious to addiction and path of destruction this content creates in their own lives. And the terrifying truth is that sex trafficking is hugely linked to the sex industry, as well. Ex-porn star Crissy Moran knows she can't change her past. But God has restored her future.

"I made tons of mistakes but entering porn was one of the biggest ones," she said. "This mistake is out there forever but I've come to peace with myself and who God has made me to be."

h/t: Gospel Herald YOU MAY ALSO LIKE: Drugs Took Over Until Former Hee Haw Star Lulu Roman Found Jesus Credit: Knox Village Soup (left) / The Boot (right)