Josh Blackwell

Well, where do I start? I made a profession of faith when I was 8yrs old, but come to find out it was just for show. I was saved later on, when I was 17. I started living for God the way I was supposed to, then when I turned 28, I got on drugs pretty bad.Instead of turning to God,I started smoking crack. My life was falling to pieces.First, I lost my house, then I lost my car. Then, I lost my job.After all that, I thought it couldn't get any worse,but it did. My wife told me she was leaving and taking my 3 boys with her.Come to find out she was seeing another man, and had been for 2yrs.I really got low. I started smoking more and more crack. I was working in a crack house as the doorman.I started selling and smoking. I was smoking $500-$700 a day. Then I finally hit an all time low. I was gonna kill myself. I left the crack house, walking,I left my pipe and $300 worth of drugs for whoever.I was walking down a busy road mad at God for everything he took from me.I told him, I was done with this life. I was going to end it. I was waiting for an 18 wheeler to come by, and I was going to step right out in front of it. A couple seconds later, I heard one coming.When it got close to me I went to step out and I felt a hand on my shoulder keeping me from stepping over the white line.As soon as the truck went by I stepped into the lane.Nothing was coming. I said alright the next truck that comes by, I'm jumping out in front of it. I heard another one coming. Same thing happened, I felt a hand on my shoulder and it wouldn't let me step over the line. I finally got to another dealers house and called my dad. I told him I wanted to come home.It had been 4 months since anyone had heard from me. He came and picked me up.The following sunday he ask me if I would go to church with him.I said I guess,I didn't have anywhere else to go.All I had to my name was the clothes on my back. I went to church and God was dealing with me, but I didn't go to the alter and make things right. The next sunday, he ask me,again, to go with him. I did and God dealt with my heart so strong I couldn't wait to get down to the alter. I gave my life back to God and I have been going strong since 2005. I saw where I was atand I never want to go down that road again. I met a woman at church and she was the most beautiful person I've ever seen. To this day I still think she's an angel. Well I wanted to keep that angel, so I married her.God has blessed me more than you'll ever know since I've been living for him. I could never repay him for where he brought me from and where I am today.So, I'm going to love Jesus and do right untill he comes or he takes me to be with him.