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I am not who I was. I have been given a new leash on life. For years I struggled with life controlling issues. My life was consumed with an out of control eating disorder, self harm, severe suicidal thoughts, and depression. I was obsessed with death and had no desire to live. On the flipside, I was heavily involved in church ministry. Because of that I grew even worse. I couldnt handle how hypocritical I was. My passion has always been to pursue after God with all that is within me. All I wanted was to be able to reach hurting people like myself and help them get out of the hell that I also lived in. But all of those struggles held me back. I felt as if I was trapped inside a glass box, staring out at the world around me, unable to get beyond its walls. Many times I tried to take my life, but God would intervene over and over again. I finally found myself at Mercy Ministries, a residential treatment facility for girls ages 13-28 struggling with various issues. It was the hardest six months of my life. But let me tell you..IT WAS WORTH EVERYTHING. God has completely set me free from every single bondage that was in my life. I am such a far cry from who I was that it leaves me speechless. I shouldnt even be alive. And it gets even better. I am actually living now and not just existing. I am genuinely happy to be alive and I never thought that was even possible. So, what am I going to do now? Im going to make the enemy regret that he ever messed with me. There is nothing holding me back now.