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Name: K Z
Gender: Female
Age: 16 Years Old
Location: Minnesota
 

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Interests: Golf,Basketball,Guitar,Drums,Music,Poetry,Archery, and anything Outdoors

Favorite Verse: Revelations21:4
And he shall wipe away every tear from their eyes; and death shall be no more; neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain, any more: the first things are passed away.

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Self-Injury Help Oct 18, 2008

Lord help me with my on going stuggle with self injury. So badly do I feel the urge to cut or just hurt myself. If I had a...
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My life seems to have no purpose or meaning. I seriously want to cut myself. I don't have a relationship with God, because...
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If Only I Could Tell My Friends How I Feel...
Posted at 07:14 PM on January 1, 2009 by 21STIGMATA

Lately I've been feeling really depressed. I think my friends are so sick of seeing me be depressed that they just don't care anymore. So many times lately I've been questioning my life, my purpose. Sometimes I feel like my friends push me to cut, burn, and bruise myself Although I know I can only blame me for being messed up and doing the harm that I do to myself. If only they knew that just taking the time to talk to me after school would help or that maybe hanging out on the weekend keeps me from cutting. I'm one of those people who will say sorry even if it isn't my fault just so people can move on with what is bothering them. I live on a emotional roller-coaster happy one minute downing a bottle of pills the next. I get that it is hard to get were I come from at times but that doesn't make me any less human. I've broken my own bones, choked myself to the point of passing out, and given myself deep gashes and burns, just to feel human...to feel something.... People can say they... Read More »

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Name: K Z
Gender: Female
Date of Birth: May 28, 1992
State: Minnesota
Country: United States
About Me: I'm an easy going person. I've had many ups and downs in my life but that has only made me stronger. I like to hang out and talk with my friends as much as possible. For the most part I just like having a good time.

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Interested In: Golf,Basketball,Guitar,Drums,Music,Poetry,Archery, and anything Outdoors
Favorite Music: Nirvana,Skillet,Foo Fighters, The Donnas, Kittie, Green Day, Fozzy, The Luchagors, and much more
Favorite Movies: Wrong Turn, Now and Then, Drop Dead Gorgeous, Elektra, and many more
Favorite Books: Band of Sisters, Augusta Gone, The Kurt Cobain Journals
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wellspring left a comment for 21STIGMATA added: Sep 25, 2008

Hi. After getting your friend request, I checked out your page and poem. It is very brave to share such deep thoughts with others like that. I thought I...

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21STIGMATA left a video comment added: Jun 8, 2008

Interesting video but orangutans are apes not monkeys : Monkeys have tails Apes do not. Also I've seen things on Discovery Channel and other such educational...

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vampi left a video comment added: Jan 7, 2009

that was totaly ALSUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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gregorythetruth left a video comment added: Jan 6, 2009

4th TIME'S A CHARM. NOBODY'S PERFECT: I always suggest stopping after the third word when you don't understand and then putting all the focus on self and...

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Christfollower17 left a video comment added: Jan 6, 2009

pro-choice is pro-abortion!

MaranathaMeg left a photo comment added: Jan 6, 2009

dang save some comeents for the rest of us will ya?!? jk ;)

MaranathaMeg left a comment for MaranathaMeg added: Jan 6, 2009

wow brett you got!! i'm so proud of you!! katy...you let him get it first. oh wait she was just try'n to make ya feel good about yourself brett. isn't that...

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BattleReady09 left a comment for Avery1985 added: Jan 5, 2009

Hey Avery, Miss talking to ya. Specially miss your guitar playing. Just stopping by to say hey and ask how things have been going GBU ~BEC~*

threenailzz uploaded a photo added: Jan 5, 2009

Dear friends: Please enjoy the new film, with spoken word, about the quiet place one can find, in Jesus, on the other side of a broken heart..God Bless!

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gloestique left a comment for MaranathaMeg added: Jan 4, 2009

and...it didn't show...and go get the chicken....like i said...its what i do...

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Thank you Pedrois9..God Bless!

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wellspring Jul 31, 2008
image Hi. After getting your friend request, I checked out your page and poem. It is very brave to share such deep thoughts with others like that. I thought I would share just a little about the Lord and some verses that relate to your poem. Primarily, God is real. His Word is the only source of truth. Jesus is who He claims to be and offers salvation throug faith and whole-hearted relationship-NOW. God's Word confirms that our hearts and other people's hearts are much like you speak of in your poem: We try to fill a void with stuff that we think will satisfy us, but it trickles out... Jeremiah 2:11-13 Has a nation changed its gods, even though they are no gods? But my people have changed their glory for that which does not profit. Be appalled, O heavens, at this; be shocked, be utterly desolate, declares the LORD, for my people have committed two evils: they have forsaken me, the fountain of living waters, and hewed out cisterns for themselves, broken cisterns that can hold no water. Stone... Eze 11:19 I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh. Eze 36:26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. Deceitful... Jeremiah 17:9-10 The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? "I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward a man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve." Take Heart... Lok at those promises in Ezekial! Look at Jesus speaking here: John 17:1-5 "1 After Jesus said this, he looked toward heaven and prayed: 2 For you granted him authority over all people that he might give eternal life to all those you have given him. 3 Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent. 4 I have brought you glory on earth by completing the work you gave me to do. 5 And now, Father, glorify me in your presence with the glory I had with you before the world began. Knowing Him is NOW. In your poem you also compared fullness and emptiness...All that is said about fullness in the Bible is about has to do with filling that void BY HIM-the only One who fully satisfie. Fullness is about His "eternal weight of Glory." It is heavy-not empty. It includes living for Him and not ourselves. It is completeness. Ephesians 3:14-21 14For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, 15from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named, 16that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, 19and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
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BRIAN4GOD May 15, 2008
image Hi KZ, JESUS IS THERE FOR YOU HE LOVES YOU...JUST TALK TO HIM LIKE YOU WOULD TALK TO A FRIEND HE HIS THERE FOR YOU. DONT GIVE UP HOPE JESUS HAS A PURPOSE FOR YOU LIFE.
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faithfulfish May 23, 2008
image Hi K Z, I went to the prayer wall for you. Life is not always easy, but I have only had a true relationship with God and he helped me through things that most young people don't go throughl Please read my witness (story) at www.faithfulfish.com and you will see that God can help you.

I am now 20 and in college and I am happy, not always, but most of the time I am joyous.
Thanks for asking to be one of my friends it is an honor.

Blessings Chelsea
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guitar4jesus Mar 18, 2008
image Nice Profile!!! Live for Him and no one else!!!! Tyler L C
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