Proof
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Monday, April 6, 2009 at 6:57am | Edit Note | Delete
All the proof I needed came to me in July 2008, at least that's what I think, but for some reason I've been given more and more proof through the months. What proof your wondering I'm sure. Imagine your in some woods and the sun is just about to break through the branches and when it does you see the rays of the sun break through the branches and are captivated by the sight of the light in the early morning hours. You walk over and you feel the warmth of the sun and you are drawn to it, feel like the whole part of you is being raised up toward it. Could anyone see what was going on, not a chance, but I did and no one in this place can take that away from me. Some have tried , but I know what I have been going through and can not turn my back from it.
You know what I thought as soon as it was over, everything was going to be fixed the way I wanted it, he was on my side. See I was given something I never actually new existed so now that I had seen the light it would all be over soon. Of course I would not be writing this if that was the case, but what I have been touched with, surpasses all understanding. When I say I have cried a tear or two I am not exaggerating, these showers of love I long for, I can't turn my back from that and I know it all has a purpose. This is so hard to explain because everyone has free will, but in my situation I fasted for the release of promises, the last three days I was dreaming of food. Although my situation didn't turn out I could not be dissappointed.In that time I was given so much love and peace that all I wanted to do was pay it back to him, I wanted my knees locked and ready to help out when called.
When I hear of good vs. evil I shudder, or the epic battles of the bible, casting out 1/3 of the angels, or the end of times. Someone told me that when God is so near the devil is tapping at your shoulder. How many times in my life did I face off with the devil and he won? For some reason, thanks to some people filled with grace told me to turn to the lord. What did that mean, when you had no idea what it meant? But I tried it out, and the pastor asked questions and I answered as truthful as possible, tried it a second time and went further, and this pastor would just laugh, saying your one of those guys. For some reason it just made me feel at ease, but frustrated that he could take my situation so lightly. He prayed for me anyhow and half way through the prayer it was what turned the epic battle for me to the front lines.
From that point on , no matter what happens, with all my heart I know there is God and he is on my side, I know that there is also a devil and evil spirits, If I treat someone unfair, or say harsh words, or get greedy, or think it's me doing something good not giving credit to who deserves credit, than the devil is tapping on my shoulder. All you have to do is look at all the bad things happening and know something is not right and something is amazingly good. Going into the 20 year reunion this summer , I am the same person that went to a church in hopes I could date Jill Wenger but I came out as a witness this last summer, 100% pat holm also 100% J.C. Hard to explain but I am who he says I am. And I can not do anything right without him!
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7
A Morning Prayer for God to Be Near - Your Daily Prayer - May 14
God’s Word tells us that His nearness is good for us (Psalm 73:28) because with His nearness, which is wonderful in itself, we also receive His goodness.