Growth in the Christian life is not what you think
We must always recognize that we have nothing good in ourselves. Only when we truly see that we cannot live the holy life perfectly from our thoughts, motives, deeds and actions , at that point we can rest in the yoke of Jesus which is light and easy and not heavy.
God Bless you! Here is Tullian Tchvidjian's web site to me the most incredible conveyer of God's grace today.
http://liberate.org/
http://www.crpc.org/media
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