My life as a child should have been meek and mild if my parents would have only known You.
Instead, my first memory was listening to them blame me, and saying its through.
I learned then and there that nobody cared, and for me I would have to depend.
For my life to have meaning, I would have to be leaning on myself clear to the end.
As I look back over my life I realize that there was turmoil and strife that could have been avoided.
Consequences and dealings, that came from the feelings that were often exploited.
God I now realize as I run for the prize, most of my life has been off course.
But now as I look to You, for my life to renew, because You are the Immoveable Force.
As I now scroll back through the years, through the laughter and the tears, and set aside my pride.
I have come to know that You are mighty to show, and Youve always been there by my side.
At the age of 7 I discovered Heaven, and asked Jesus into my life.
From then till 9, everything seemed fine, free from trouble and strife.
Then one day the social worker came to say, you are going to be adopted.
To finally belong permanently, to a loving, caring family, saying yes I quickly opted.
Disappointment and sorrow soon arose when it was disclosed that my life from there would be ending.
Giving my foster parents love up, my feelings away Id stuff, myself again I would be depending.
My first wife I married, because too far our emotions got carried, from immoral and sinful relations.
Fulfilling my word, others objections unheard, meeting my moral obligations.
Loving my son more than my wife was causing trouble and strife, straining my family.
Living in pain, feeling the strain, fueled the increasing volatility.
After 8 years of yelling and tears, we decided to go our separate ways.
Broken and humbled realizing that I stumbled, to You God I finally prayed.
Today here I stand, a brand new man with my life fully restored,
Living my life with a new wife, all to the thanks of the Lord.
Todays message Im giving is for the living, it is simple and true.
For the church to arise to take the Prize, the points to the message are two.
First, put God in your day, and in all your ways acknowledge Him as Savior and Lord.
Then you as well will begin to tell that your life has been fully restored.
Next true love is found within yourself as you will begin to see.
For if you dont really love yourself, then how can you show love in victory?