terrythestoudt's Blog

I was born into a bible believing family,my grandma was my greatest inspiration with her walk with christ,as a young child I would see her sit with her bible with all her passages underlined and all her hand written notes in her bible,and she would hold this bible in her hands and she had the biggest smile on her face and she was just in her own little world,I was so curious why she was so joyous over this one book.......but now I know,I wish I would of been walking with the lord while she was alive,but I wasnt,I could never think of a time that I never believed in God,I always believed,but than my actions were not really connected to my belief thats why I believe you have to repent to be saved and not just believe,my parents weres so great to us,never abused us ,but as we were growing up my father was a alcoholic as,but now today he is walking with the lord,but my father always worked and never ever abused us,he always made sure there was food on the table,as a child I use to get a bible and stand in front of the mirror and pretend to preach,I really enjoyed that,I was curious about God,we went to church in our younger years,I accepted the lord when I was 10 and I realised even though what I have been through in my life he never deserted me,but as I grew up I was getting farther away from what I believed in and closer to the ways of world,I started to drink at 13,I got high when I was 13,I start using cocaine at the age of 18,I was in that circle of my alcohol,drug using freinds,I came more and more self destructive and more expermental in my drug use,I have used and expermented in every drug,I hit my bottom when I was 33 I was heavy into cocaine and alcohol and I owed back rent ,no food....nothing,my parents saved me ,but living with your parents at the age of 34 is not like good,but I quit my drugs,still drank,but I still wasnt right with the lord,gradually I start walking towards my lord,I traveled to mexico 3 years ago and fell in love with a lovely mexican girl,we got married febuary 14 2006,she is catholic and I admire how she loves God,she is my inpiration in my walk,my mother died september 2006,it was a sad moment for me,my mother was a wonderful christian and I am glad where she is right now,her death as brought myself into yielding every aspect of my life to the lord,my wife lost 2 babies in the past year,but all this I love the lord with all my heart and soul,I will never turn my back on him again,he never turned his back on me,he was always with me,I feel his presence alot in my life,and it brings me to tears,tears of joy of how great he is,he is so patient and kind,and I will live for the lord and not for myself,every day I learn and grow with the Lord,I think of how it must be in heaven and I look forward to the day when I see all my loved ones and I look forward to the day when I can walk by my Lords side and hold his hand,give him a hug and just look into his face and say the biggest thank you that I have did,my testimony is more than this but this is just the main things,this is just to show how great the lord is....so patient and kind,but also he is a angry God,so I lay my life for him Amen to everyone and God bless everyone and i hope in my heart that young people today realise how destructive drugs and alcohol can be,it took me alot of years that drugs and alcohol wasnt my freind,GOD BLESS YOU ALL