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My name is Natasha and I am in the 8th grade. I have one brother and one sister, both older than me. I have one dog named Tucker, two cats named Oliver and Miley, and one rat named Isabella.
Here is my testimony as you may call it. Or my story:
I've been in a Christian home my whole life. For this very reason I was saved at the age of 3. But at 3 I didn't fully understand. It was just, "Hey, Mommy and Daddy and brother and sister are this way so why not me?"
Anyway at almost 4 years of age my family and I moved from Vancouver, WA to Madras, OR. My dad was an associate pastor there. As a PK there is a lot to be expected from you. But I didn't mind. I loved Madras and I was sad when we left.
At 7 years old we moved back to Vancouver. I went a private christian school there called Hosanna. It was there that everything started to decline in my life.
The next place I went to was a public elementary school and then another private school. This was only a minor decrease.
It was in my middle school that my life took a wrong turn.
During my sixth and seventh grade years at Jemtegaard Middle School I discovered a thing called peer pressure. And I, not having experienced it before this, gave in to the world. the devil came into my life and pulled me under. I started to cuss, something I am very much ashamed of and I still sometimes struggle with. I also did something else I'm ashamed of. But I'm not going to mention that. These things still nag at me daily.
It was difficult for me during those times. I completely fell away from the Lord. But the thing was, God never let go of me. Every time any dirty thing came from my own tongue, fear gripped at me. It was fear for my soul. Deep down I knew the truth. Daily I would realize that I was not going to heaven. I'd tell myself I was going to change. But I never did. I still went to church and acted like a Christian at home, but it was all an act.
Then I stumbled across the Christy Miller Series, the Sierra Jensen Series, and the Christy and Todd:The College Years. These have forever changed my life, my outlook on everything. I gave my heart to the Lord then, and this time for real and forever.
God never let go of me and I don't know why. Even in my most worldy hours, He wouldn't let me leave. I don't know what's so important about me, but God has a plan.
After that very day, January 24th (I call it my spiritual birthday) I felt the call to be a missionary. I'm not completely sure, I'm still praying, but this is my plan and possibly God's.
It's still very hard for me to have a Christian attitude. I have trouble changing from the person I used to be to the person God wants me to be. That's why I love the skit for the lifhouse song, everythin. I had an image for myself and that's how everybody knows me still. It's so hard to change. I've read scripture and I've read many different verses about why you should not care about what others think and why you should change into God's creation, but I haven't found one that says HOW you do that!! If you have any advice for me, I'd appreciate it.