Mexico Miracle!!!
Written by sold2him
Posted on Saturday, April 5, 2008 at 02:56 PM.
I went to Mexico during Spring Break, for an Outreach Program. And I have to say that I have never had so much fun in my life, or been so close to God. It was amazing!!!!!!! I could go on for hours about all of the wonderful things that went on while down there, but sadly I do not have the time. But one thing did happen down there, that I would love to share with everyone.On Easter Sunday, me and the rest of my team were praying over the people in the church down there. And then the Pastor came over to me, and wanted me to follow him, I thought that he wanted me to pray over someone, but instead he started praying over me. And at first I was thinking that this is really neat, but I didn't really think that I personally needed to be prayed over. But the second that Pastor laid hands on me I immediaely felt the presence of God in a way that I never have before. And he starte praying these wonderful, encouraging things to me, and being a girl I of course immediately started to cry. But the only thing I remember the Pastor saying to me was this question that he asked me, and I will probably remember it for the rest of my life. And I went something like this, "Do you believe that God couldn't love someone who was doing work for his kingdom?" At first I was very confused, but then once what he was saying sunk in, I really started to cry. He had just confronted an issue that I had been struggling with for a very long time, and I wasn't even aware of it!!! Wow. You see for the last 5 months or so I had been feeling this rift between me and God, and I thought that it was just due to stress, worries, and so on, because I have been dealing a lot with those lately. And I had finally gotten rid of those, so I figured life was good. But, you see that wasn't what was causing the rift between me and God, granted it had been causing a little of it. But what was causing it was the fact that I didn't believe God loved me. Of course I knew he loved me, I have known that since I was born, but I didn't BELIEVE it. And there is a huge difference between knowing something and believing it. Trust me. You see I have a huge self-esteem issue, majorly, and I don't believe anyone could ever love me, like real, real love. I don't feel like I will ever get a boyfriend or husband, but I realized that day I really didn't believe God loved me. I mean why would he??? I am not the skinniest, prettiest, funniest, most popular, or most spiritual. But those things DO NOT MATTER to God. And they shouldn't matter ro me either. It is what is on the inside that counts, and I have come to realize that, and I now am able to focus much less on the outside and much more on the inside. And I keep getting better and better at that. And I have never been such a strong Christian, or so close to God. And GOD LOVES ME, even though I am not perfect, and never will be. HE STILL LOVES ME!!!!!!!!! Amen.
