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"Turning My Pain into Purpose" In order to exchange our ashes for Gods beauty,we must realize the"fruit"or behavior,in our lives comes from our roots. i was physically,$#!@ually,verbally,ect,abused by a man from my earliest teen age years thru the age of 22.I have been rejected,abandoned,betrayed,and divorced.the abuse I experienced left behind many ashes.I became someone I didnt know,and myself became judgmental,joyless ect.. .sad part is,I thought everyone else had a problem,and didnt see the problem within me.I had plenty of "rotten"fruit in my life that was hurting not only me, but every one I loved.I had made a mess of my life was severely broken and fragmented by fear,insecurity,emotional addictions and alcohol addiction.I was on the verge of death and i came to my knees and opened bible to Isaiah54:4-10and knew what God was telling me.I now have a new found relationship with my mercyful Lord and savior and my life has been turned around for Gods purpose.He took my fragmented life and turned my mess into what is my message.Ive buried that old self and walk with him in my every moment.I know he is the only way truth,and Life.Who has ever said living for the Lord will bring pain and misery?No one-following the Lord and King.Satan only brings suffering ,pain unspeakable,destruction,separation of anything good,empty coversations,joyless and no peace.Praise God that he has saved me from that and i will never want that kind of life again.When you see the light of God,you can not go back there again..Praise God!!He is the only one with perfect love,unspeakable joy,unending is the love of God.