Desprate search-lyrics but they're kinda long, i guess it's a bunch of lyrics put together//lol
Written by pngcrazychic
Posted on Wednesday, May 14, 2008 at 07:58 PM.
Desprately I'm searching,
Searching in the dark,
trying hard to find it, trying hard to fix it,
but I don't know where to start.
Desprately I'm seachring,
Searching the corners of my mind,
Trying hard to find it, trying hard to fix it.
But I don't know where to start.
Where could it be? Where can I find it?
I'm starting to go crazy, I'm losing my mind.
I take a break to catch my breath, my feet are sore from running,
I sit in the dirt, and try to think. and again my hands start searching.
The ground is sharp and jagged, I can feel my fingers being scrapped.
What is keeping me in this place? why can't I see my Saviors face?
I'm trying hard to find it, trying hard to fix it,
but where on earth do I possibly start?
Desprately I'm seaching,
feeling through the dark,
trying hard to find it, trying hard to fix it.
Desprately I'm searching,
looking in my heart.
trying hard to find it, trying hard to fix it.
Where could it be? this thing thats keeping me...
I fall to my knees and begin to cry.
"Why, Oh why, must I stray tonight?
Help me God, please hear my cry.
Please remove the thorn from my eye"
I take a breath and begin to stand, slowly feeling hope.
Silly me he's been right here, he wouldn't think to leave me.
'I know he's there' I think to myself, 'but I still can't see his face, where is his hand that used to guide me?
have I done something wrong to make him leave me..." the end of the thought trails off with a scowl,
"Blast my stupid ignorance"
Scared by the thought of not having his hand, I start again on my desprate search.
Searching in the darkness,
trying hard to find it, trying hard to fix it.
Down on my knees I begin to weep, all trace of hope forgotten,
How did I get here? I feel forsaken, but I know he heard my cry.
Tired of searching, exhausted from crying
I give up on my desprate quest, I lay on my face and say a whispered prayer, that goes a little like this...
"Dear God in heaven, I know your there, and I know you care.
Please give me strength to stand up to this fear, let me see your face.
I long to see you Father God, The beauty of your power, I don't know how you do it,
How you could love us sinners.
I don't understand it, how you could do it, just give your life for me...it baffles me to know I'm loved
by someone as great as thee. I need you God, protect me now, and lift me from my knees,
Give me your strength, so that I might fight, against these chains that hold me.
I praise you God, You are my Lord, Forever, not just for the hour.
I praise you God, You are my Rock, Forever, not just tomorrow.
I praise you God, though you deserve so much better, but right now, I'm giving you my all.
I'm giving you my heart my life, but along with that my pain.
I hate that you should have to suffer, for one so small as me. But Thank you Lord, for blessing me,
I thank you God for thee, Thank you Friend, without you, Nothing else would matter.
Forgive me my sins, forgive me my troubles, I've doubted you and I've cursed tomorrow,
Forgive me Lord Jesus, forgive my stupid ignorance, forgive my foolish acts,
I come to you know, sincere and honest, needing your guidance, I give it to you now."
I open my eyes to realize, my weeping has now ended,
I look around and I am found! He's sitting next to me!
The darkness has recoiled! His light is all around!
He saved me from my suffering, the pit I dug so deep.
I stare in wonder as he picks me up from the muddy floor, and in his arms he carries me,
through my bedroom door.
As he walks he doesn't say much, just words of love and comfort, he doesn't tell me I'm a disaster.
or tell me I'm a scoundrel. He sits me down upon his lap, and reaches for a wet towel,
Gently he cleans my face and arms, and says "I'm sorry Child but its going to take a wee bit more than just a damp towel to remove these painful scars"
My down cast eyes are filled with tears, my heart is filled with sorrow.
"I'm so sorry Lord, I just-" He puts his finger to my lips, and shakes his head slowly a smile growing on his face.
"I love you" he says, as he places a band aid over my scratched up knee "Your forgiven, but have you learned to finally trust in me?"
I nod to him, and repeated to myself
"Blast my stupid ignorance..."
A soft and gentle chuckle came through his smiling lips. and then again he picked me up, and placed me in my bed.
He tucked me in with great care, and placed a soft kiss on the top of my head, and settled in to tell me a story about an ignorant sheep.
That once was lost but now is found. Was blind but now can see....
