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I am the type of girl who laughs when people die in movies. Who only cries when she's alone. Who is to smart for her own good. Who will argue forever over stupid things. Who can't let go of guys who aren't worth it. Who acts like she's okay. Who will laugh out loud at something that happened yesterday. Who will deny change as long as she can. I'm the type of girl who wants to figure out who she is but can't just yet. I'm the type of girl who changes every two seconds. Who can't make up her mind on what she wants. Who has no idea where she'll stand tomorrow. But never forgets where she stood yesterday. I'm the girl who overanalyzes everything. Who always prepares for the worst. Who writes novels in her head, but than forgets how to talk. Who looks at things to closely. Who gives the best advice,which she somehow never seems to follow. Who is always expected to have the answers. Who is always expected to get it right. Who is never expected to mess up. But in the end she always does. I do fall on my face over and over again. You would think that after awhile I would figure things out. I guess some things you never learn. And yeah, I believe in God. He is the reason for my purpose. He picks me up, even when no one else will. But that doesn't put me on a pedestal. That doesn't make me any better than you. God saves me. It is impossible for me to save myself. Maybe in your eyes that makes me weak. You might think I have to hide behind a cross and bible just to make sense of this world. Well, that's exactly right. Without my God, I am nothing. I need him, and I cling to that more than I breathe. I'm not perfect, and I'm learning that I never will be. I don't have all the answers. And I'll probably even mess up more than you do. But that doesn't matter. I'm just an ordinary girl with an extraordinary Saviour. I believe in the sun even if it isn't shining. I believe in love even when I am alone. I believe in God, even when He is silent.