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6/28/09. <br /> Reconciled? More like born again, again! I had accepted Jesus long ago but never in my heart wanted to make the commitment to serve him. I always understood what it meant to be a Christian but I never KNEW exactly what it meant. I know now. Through the gift of revelation that the Holy Spirit bestowed on one of his followers, God SHOWED me he was real. He revealed to me that he saved me from death. What made me truly believe in this was the fact that the Holy Spirit also gave me the date in which my king spared me. May 12, 1998. While my memory fails to recall the events of that exact date, what I found most amazing was the fact that the first 6 months of 1998(Jan-June) were some of the darkest moments of my life. I had fully immersed myself into the urban street lifestyle. At times I had found myself in life threatening situations, for me and others. If there was ever a period in my life that was most dangerous, that was it. My wife dragged me to church on that beautiful Sunday against my will, not knowing that day would change my life. My only regret is that he had to show me. <br /> <br /> Blessed is he who has not seen yet believed - John 20:29. <br /> <br /> From that day on I no longer pray for the same things. Now I choose to pray for God to continue showing me his love and mercy. I pray that I can become worthy enough to feel his presence. That I can grow in him and build a personal relationship with him. I pray that I can be useful to him, to become worthy enough to serve him, to become worthy enough to be in his favor. My prayers are no longer filled with empty and rehearsed thank yous. I now thank him from the very bottom of my heart. I thank him for my loving wife who not only spoke to me about Jesus but introduced me to him. I thank him for having an impact on the life of my children. An impact so big it is THEY who choose to follow him. I look around and see the struggling and godless lives around me and I thank him for keeping my family on his narrow path. Most of all, I thank him for waiting on me to get to this point. <br /> <br /> Psalms 103:8 The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abundant in mercy. <br /> <br /> Thank you!