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TO MY PRECIOUS CHILD

~ I LOVE YOU!!!



Why are you trying to earn my grace?

When grace already has been given to you?



You are my child, my precious son/daughter

Nothing you ever will do or say

can change my love for you.

YOU are MY child, MY precious son/daughter



Why are you trying to earn my love?

When love already has been given you?



I sent My one and only Son to earth

He took everything that ever could separate us

upon the cross and paid the penalty for you

I sent My one and only Son to die, because I love you



Why are you trying to earn my forgiveness?

When forgiveness already has been given you?



What Jesus had to go through

all that He ad to suffer in deep pain

in darkness and separation from me

was because of my love for you



Why are you trying to earn my power?

When power already has been given you?



You are My precious child and I love you

the power that rose Christ from death

is the same power I let work through you

Because you are My precious, My beloved



Why are you trying to earn my favor?

When favor already has been given you?



All that I am the beholder of is yours

and all are freely given to you as a gift of grace

Stop trying to earn things and blessings from me

because you will never be able to accomplish that



Why are you trying to earn my providing?

When providing already has been given you?



Because of Jesus you are My precious child

My beloved, because of Jesus

You already have freedom, forgiveness and grace

power, providing, favor and more then you ever will need.



Everything is because of Jesus

Everything I give you is because of Jesus

Everything I created you to be, you can be in Jesus

Everything is because of Jesus, freely given out of love



YOU ARE MINE!!!

AND I LOVE YOU NOW AND FOREVER!!!



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A couple of songs that fit perfect with the message, (if the message hit home-run please take time to listen!), actually it was one line from one of these songs that made me have to write this piece. The songs are written as messages from God to each one of us, so listen like God is "singing" to you!!



Beloved- Tenth Avenue North

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5XtL6ZxHbUQ



By Your Side- Tenth Avenue North

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J95rAr0gOFU



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As for many others, my testimony also is way to long to put out here! So you only get a little glimpse into some periods of my life and my today. Some off them are from the last 7 years that I sometime refers to as my hard years in blasts and messages.



I use to put it this way: "I've been a christian for all my life except 5 minutes in 7t grade!". Back then I got what became the most important question in my whole life from a classmate (he had heared my mom had become a christian)that was: "are you a christian also??" Honest as I was, I said "No, I'm not" because that was what I believed. WOW my stomach turned everywhere!!! So I figured out that "I have to be, but I don't know what it mean..." (I'm not from a christian family, but we have become one, only 1 brother left). I'd always loved to read, and after this I started to read NT. One year later when I turned 15 I got my first Bible. Before I turned 18 I had to use tape to hold it together and other was referring to it as my 'colour map'! Before turning 20 I had been through the whole Bible several times. I loved the word of God!! And still do!!!



Somewhere between 18 and 19 (I think) God came to me one evening and asked me a question: "Will you go through your past so you can say it is over?? So you can become totally free to live with and for me today and in My will and calling for your tomorrow??" My 'yes' to that gave me some hard months with lot of pain and tears as God showed me all my wounds, but also helped me to go through it all at the same time as He healed me and restored me. The most important thing He revealed for me was His heart as a Father! For the first time in life, I both knew and felt I was loved and accepted for the one I was.



Autumn/fall 2005

I'm 30 years old, been married 9 years, have my 2 boys. Oldest is 2 1/2 year old and constantly sick, also having bad sleeping disorders (since birth). My youngest is 1/2 year and something is wrong...but what??? My husband lives with us but in his own world- his psychic problems and illnesses have only become worse the latest years... Me- I sleep maybe 3 hours each night and have done that since Sep-02, up 10-15 times each night because of the boys and longest sleeping periods are 30-40 minutes. Have to do everything on my own (house, car, shopping, economy, children...) I'm sooo tired, and also developing medical depression because of some tab's I reacted neg to. Lives minute by minute to 'survive' and come through every day and night...Remember I told my mom to never ask how I was when she called me, because I would only start crying and do so for 20-30 minutes. I know God is there with us, with me, His word says so! But I never feel His presence...just that everything is tooo much to bear...



Feb 2006

I told my doctor 2 months earlier that something was not right with my body because of the tiredness and exhaustion I was feeling...he wouldn't believe me.

My oldest turns 3, and has already developed depression because of the home situation. I finally out my foot down and tells my husband that he has to move out for a short period so he can become a bit better before returning home. Supposed to be a month or two...



Summer 2006

My husband haven't moved home as our agreement was...and suddenly one day God tells me that he soon will find himself a girlfriend. Remember the question from age 18? will you go through... God takes me through becoming alone, betrayed, a single parent and many other things according to the situations that will come... so though, but in a strange way I see His grace and deep love for me and my boys. Because we have normal family days when they are home, but at once their weekends at daddy starts- God started working with me, preparing me and healing me at the same time...Many broken dreams, many tears, many dark hours and days and a loving God caring for His daughter!!



Sep/Oct 2006

Still fighting with doctors for myself and my youngest. Start to work 100 % and not only 50, still only 2-3 hour sleep every night and up 10-15 times, moving to new apartment, my husband find himself a girlfriend, trouble at my workplace (in only 2 weeks I go from 'angel to devil'). Lives 5 minutes at time to be able to come through my days and nights...



2007

When the new year party is over I do as usual! Sit down with my Bible and prays, letting God show me what the last year had contained and give me glimpse into the new. Our main-verses for 07 becomes Jer.33.3+6 and one month later I get Isa.48.10-11. And one word "Sabbath-year". My 2-3 years in the 'desert', just living by faith, on His word is over and God 'starts' to speak more an more into my life again. He reveals some off all He had done and planted into me the last 5 hard years.The "sabbath-year" turns out to be about finding in to His peace and rest in Him, not in the circumstances in life. Because life in 07 also contains a lot of hard times and issues like; my body says total stop and I end up stay-at-home- mom not able to do anything, my husband chooses the other lady twice more before me, our boys and our family life, my main income suddenly drops 70 %, I get divorced, still trouble with workplace and guess if people love chatting about everything...and more. November 07 I finally after 2 years in a strange way (God involved) get a doctor that believes me and are diagnosed CFS (ME), and it turns out I'd had it for a while...



2 important lines to see in this...

#1 I said I read A LOT in the Bible my first years. God gave me a strong love and need for His word, and He planted it into my heart and spirit. When I said I lived on faith, on His word- I actually lived in and off what God had put into my life those first years. He HAD already given me what I needed to go through everything, in believing Him and His word!



#2 Remember the question at age 18? 'will you go through your past'... God helped me do exactly this during these years. Every time a new issue came up, He was there, helping me through the pain and healing me- loving me and let "everything work together to good" because I let Him into it and let Him show me his way through it and out of it. I never was the strong one, He IS my strong one, my strong tower and shelter! And when I couldn't walk on my own, He came and lifted me and my boys up into His loving arms and carried us!!!



Today

I LOVE HIM!!! He is my life, and every new day is sooo exciting!! What will You do today God?? What can I do for You today?? He has learned me how to be happy and have peace in mind, even though me circumstances aren't what we call perfect. There still are many 'storms and troubles' in life, but what do that matter?? Because He is here with me!!! and He is able in all things and He is in control. I don't have to worry about tomorrow, I don't have to live in yesterdays pain and wounds- I can live today!! And what is most important today?? Love God and love the neighbour (and my 2 boys top that list!!)

When I say I know life can be hard, dark, though and depressing- I know because I've been there for years.

When I say I know life can be great even when our circumstances are 'bad'/hard- I know that too, because I live in it and have for 1 1/2 year (and gonna continue!!)

I know the path between these 2 are hard to walk, but I know it is possible- because He will be with you every step on the road as He was with me!

"I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I..." Gal.2.20 is a well-known and loved verse for many, but it's also a verse that creates confusion and frustration.



Confusion because we in the beginning of our lives as believers don't always understand what it means to be crucified with Christ. BUT this is a spiritual truth, and therefore it can't be understood with our human sense. So don't worry if you still haven't grasped it, because you have grasped the most important thing- JESUS!!! And it is through the community with God, that we get His truths revealed for our spirit. The Holy Spirit is our teacher; the fullness of wisdom is in Jesus, and God gives wisdom to all who apply to Him for it! So search God for the wisdom you need, and it will happen, He will give it to you!!!



Frustration because after we do have grasped a bit of this spiritual truth, we see that we come short in so many areas in life, that we often live more in ourselves than in the Spirit, in Him. And our hearts are crying out for a greater fullness of God's glory in and over our lives. BUT not be frustrated, for it is God who has created this longing in your heart "to will and to do of His good pleasure! He is the one who gave you the deep desire that "He shall increase and I decrease"- and remember that 'in Him, there is no condemnation'. So don't be frustrated and condemn yourself, but rather let your desire drive you till the cross and search for more of Him-and you will experience it! Keep in mind that the sanctification, that "He shall increase and you decrease", is a process- something that the used words (increase/decrease) also clearly describes!



"Crucified with Christ" is for us today a spiritual truth that we are growing into (with decreasing in ourselves!). But when Jesus nearly 2000 years ago, died on the cross, it actually was a physical truth as well. Many have never thought of this, but Isa. 49.16 say that He has "engraved you upon the palms of His hands". When Jesus was nailed to the cross, you were there with Him, because you were engraved in both His hands. YOU were (physically) crucified (together) with Christ. Therefore it is also so, that all of you that aren't of, or to the good (of God), is hung on the cross and made offering/sacrifice for.



You were crucified with Christ, but you were also raised up with Christ and can live the new life in Him, because He defeated all evil. And in Him you will find the one you are created to be and you'll be whole as a human being because you are becoming more and more in "one spirit" with your Creator and Lord. And remember that this is a process, "He shall increase and I decrease"!



I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ lives in me...(Gal 2:20a)

Pro 17:17

* "Friends love through all kinds of weather, and families stick together in all kinds of trouble." (MSG)

* "A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." (KJ2000)



From Matthew Henry's commentary on the whole Bible:

This intimates the strength of those bonds by which we are bound to each other and which we ought to be sensible of.

1. Friends must be constant to each other at all times. That is not true friendship which is not constant; it will be so if it be sincere, and actuated by a good principle. Those that are fanciful or selfish in their friendship will love no longer than their humour is pleased and their interest served, and therefore their affections turn with the wind and change with the weather. Swallow-friends, that fly to you in summer, but are gone in winter; such friends there is no loss of. But if the friendship be prudent, generous, and cordial, if I love my friend because he is wise, and virtuous, and good, as long as he continues so, though he fall into poverty and disgrace, still I shall love him. Christ is a friend that loves at all times (Joh_13:1) and we must so love him, Rom_8:35.

2. Relations must in a special manner be careful and tender of one another in affliction: A brother is born to succour a brother or sister in distress, to whom he is joined so closely by nature that he may the more sensibly feel from their burdens, and be the more strongly inclined and engaged, as it were by instinct, to help them. We must often consider what we were born for, not only as men, but as in such a station and relation. Who knows but we came into such a family for such a time as this? We do not answer the end of our relations if we do not do the duty of them. Some take it thus: A friend that loves at all times is born (that is, becomes) a brother in adversity, and is so to be valued.



What comes next is copied from a blast I sent out in continuance of this Bible-commentary:

We all faces times in our lives that are really really hard, sometimes it can be so tough that we don't now at all what to do... In these times we are in need of others to be there with and for us; *to support us and love us *to share our confusion and guide us out of it *to encourage and back us up *to carry us in before the throne of God and to help us see that there is a good future ahead of us *to remind us that God has good plans made ready for each one of us, that this only is for a time- not for ever *to help us receive from God what He is 'thinking' about what we are in *to get help to receive THE WORD from God that will solve the whole situation.



We need each other, we need true friends, friends that are by our side no matter what, friends that can take, forgive and forget the 'stupid' things we sometimes say or do, friends that loves us for the one we are friends that don't leave us when it get hot under our feet's or dark and tough in our lives, friends standing in the gap with us, friends that share and participate in both "summer and winters" of our lives, friends that love us like God do- unconditional and because we are!!



I wanna be this kinda friend, and I know I need this kinda friends in my life.



If you don't have friends like this, don't let it affect you negative, don't feel sorry for your self and get depressed... ask God to send you one!! I've gone through many hard years in my own life, and I've had to do it 'alone' for loooong periods- meaning without support from friends, BUT God was always there! You never forget that!!



And if your friends are leaving you when the winter of life comes...are they true friends?? But even if they do leave you, God will NEVER leave you!



A thing to think about...what kinda friend do you wanna be to others??



And as I've said many times before, we have 2 very important things to do and live out in our lives- love God and love thy neighbour!!



" Dear God, I pray that all of my GT friends and family will have true friends in their lives. And if there are some of them that don't have it in this time of their lives, I pray God, that You send them someone. You God, has created us with a deep and strong need to share fellowship with You and others, and I pray that all of my dear ones here will have or get this possibility. God, I pray Your blessing down on their lives, I pray that Your peace, joy and love both surrounds and fills them in a strong and mighty way. Ohh God, teach us more about what it means to be true friends, purify us so we can receive more of Your love and because of that have more to share with others. In the mighty Name of Jesus, Amen!"

Have you once again laid your life down at the cross and told Him that you love Him more then everything else and that you wanna serve Him this day?

Have you said to Him that you want your life today, all the things you are going to do and say, be a tool to glorify Him and give Him honour?

Have you decided once more, that no matter what happens in your life, that you will follow Him not paying any attention to what it will cost you??

Have you asked Him what He has planed out for you this day? What He wants you to do or say? He has something special for you this day!

Have you asked Him about eyes that sees and ears that hears?? So you are able to see the opportunities He puts in front of you and hear what He is telling you?

Have you taken a stand for Jesus this day?

We all need to do this all the time, every day and sometimes many times each day. This is a way for us to keep our eyes focused on Him, and our minds set on the most important things- that we no longer live for our selves, but for Him- and He lives in and through us. It helps us to remember that the good things in our lives is because of Him, because of His unconditional love and mercy towards us. We can't manage by our selves, we need Him!



HELP ME GOD THIS DAY,TO LIVE A LIFE THAT HONOURS YOU!

HELP ME TO GIVE YOUR AMAZING LOVE TO OTHERS THROUGH MY DOINGS AND WORDS

HELP ME GOD TO GROW CLOSER TO YOU TO KNOW YOU BETTER

I WANNA SEE YOUR FACE GOD, I WANNA SEE YOUR GLORY

NOT JUST BE A RECIVER OF YOUR HANDS BLESSINGS

YOU GOD, YOU ARE ALL I NEED, YOU ARE THE ONE I LOVE THE MOST

YOU GOD, I NEED YOU



Lam 3:22-25 "(22)It is of the LORD'S mercies that we are not consumed, because his comp!@%#$ions fail not. (23) They are new every morning: great is your faithfulness. (24) The LORD is my portion, says my soul; therefore will I hope in him. (25) The LORD is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeks him.

2 songs you find here on GT:

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=d2f875f11018c951f781

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=bba6cd5e87d2b3975f30