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I use to be a singing evangelist, But I came down with a rare muscle disease, called myasthenia gravis. I cant sing now, so I am putting some of the songs God gave me on video. I will sing again some day! God bless.
I'm a 50 year old man and married a sweetheart 30 years ago. I was raised in a Pentecostal Holiness Church (what little I went to church). I became depressed early in life. I discovered alcohol at age 14 and managed to stay drunk until I was 20, that's when I met my wife. At age 21 something happened to me, I felt there was something else to life I was still missing.
I heard a preacher one day on TV, he said God could take all my problems and depression away. Hey, I was ready for that! I called on God that day, and actually felt better. I started telling people what happened. They said I needed to get into church,
so I started to attend a little denominational church. That only lasted about 2 months. During those months I found out, (a little at a time) that I just wasn't good enough for God yet. They said " I had a lot of cleaning up to do on myself ", before the Lord would fill me with the Holy Ghost with evidence of speaking in tongues. I tried, but it just seemed I couldn't get good enough to satisfy all the requirements. I became depressed again. I wasn't getting anywhere with God. I went back to misery and started drinking again, this lasted till I was 42. Then something changed. It was a miracle! (Here's what happened)
At age 41, I wanted to die, suddenly I could not drink. For six months I tried to drink but couldn't get it down. At the end of the six months I was at the bottom of the bottom and thought of suicide constantly. But then, one of my buddies that I hadn't seen in a while called me. He asked me to go to church with him. I said, No, thanks! This guy just didn't know what kind of hell I was going through already and I sure didn't need that! Then his voice began to quiver and I realized he was crying! He said, You don't understand, you have to be there tonight!
Finally I said, Well.....OK. I thought I could put up with a little screaming and put downs for his sake, but when I got there it was so different than I'd expected! Nobody looked at me like I was dog poop. Nobody turned their noses up or acted better than me.
When the meeting started, they sang a few songs then the preacher started reading the Bible. He walked to the back of the building where I sat on the back row. I started to cringe! I just knew at any time he would start screaming and pointing his finger, but when he got to my seat he got really quiet. When I looked up he had big tears running down his face. It was then I heard the true gospel preached for the first time. He said, God only wants to love you.
I didn't know what to do! I knew he was speaking the truth. I went back home and a few days later I was just sitting in my room in an old chair, staring into space. I was so tired of living. I started talking to God. I said, God, I want you more than anything, but I don't know what to do. I've heard I'm supposed to do this, do that, go here and go there. You know I'm no good for nothing. I don't understand the Bible. I don't even know any Christian songs... "
Then it happened. God spoke to me. He actually spoke to me! He said, Just seek me. I said, God if You will show me what to do, I will do it. I don't care what it takes. But please, if I mess up, don't be any madder at me than You already are.
I started to read my Bible and He has led me places I never thought I would go, and guess what? He did only want to love me! You see the reason we are in this world is not to be tormented. We are put here to make a decision. I used to be in a troubled sea, but now God has led me beside the still waters, and He has restored my soul.
It don't take religion. It don't take money. All it takes on your part is to believe with all your heart that Someone loves you so much that He died for you, to give you life! Read a Bible, and let Him speak to you. And remember...
God only wants to love you!
( I hope you see what God is saying here ) Which Word is the right one ?
Its the Word God speaks to us with !
Is " Just seek me " in your translation ? God bless you all.