hopefulrockstar's Blog

welllll i kinda miss the chat...........ALOT!



my gosh ppl HURRY UP!?!?!



so im ticked off right now cause i found out that my dad is gonna be home for a whole month...someone shoot me



oh i got a job (is my dad happy? no..)



so yeah prayer would be nice right now



miss u all



<3 Whitney

hey guys....well right now im off to bed but b4 i do just wanted to say i won't be on alllll next week cause ill be in AL and stuff and idk if ill have internet access.

tomorrow (Friday.) im gonna be sitting my butt down aaaaaaaaalllllllll day doing English II and im not looking foward to it, this course has really gotten hard and im just dyin'. So if ya'll could pray for patience and concentration that'd be great.

so yeah i will be writing out here my songs sometime on here.

well g'night ya'll i love ya!

well i feel like im nothing....the enemy is getting to me....i haven't felt like this in a long time....

i have SO MUCH of passion for music, music is like my love language with God. And I'm having problems teaching myself the guitar...i do have ppl that could teach me but they are busy most of the time....

Please pray for me as I try to do things for His glory, sometimes its hard to be singing at church (which is every now and then.) and stuff without thinkin' "yeah im so awesome" and stuff....its all for HIS glory! I would have NO voice if it weren't for him in the first place! And also please pray for patience....i cannot have patience at all sometimes and waiting for HIS will requires alot of patience for me sometimes.....

I love ya'll so much u encourage me so much!

well i got a new cell phone today...its one of those slider ones.....and i got to chose between my dad's cell phone and the one i chose....and now i kinda wish i got his cause it came with a package and stuf.....UGH i hate being me...anxiety is hard.... :-

welllll im sorta getting personal in this blog entry so if u don't want ur standards/thoughts of me to change then don't read this...

im not using this to vent, i am sort of giving you my "backround". The reason why this is titled: why i hate weekends is cause the weekends are when my dad comes home from traveling for work. Me and my dad use to have a good relationship, but the more i grew into my teen years (im 16.) the harder its been to love him. Now love is a strong, and when trust/love is broken between two people its devastating. Well my family is very very dysfunctional. out of 5 kids I am the oldest, and random note but what breaks my heart about me and my dad's relationship is that I am the kid that looks like him ALOT. I have HIS brown eyes (the rest of my sibs have blue eyes like my mom.) and i have brown hair like him as well (welll the rest of my sibs have brown hair too so yeah...) and so i can't help but get tears in my eyes everytime i think about it.

So...also my mom and my dad are at odds. tonight my mom came home from picking my dad up at the airport with tears in her eyes....and that broke my heart. i can't stand to see my mom treated like nothing by my dad. He practically forced my mom to get a job and that has added more stress to her....

there is SO much more involved with my situation and I ask you to please pray for me and my family

i could go on and on about it all but i won't right now....just please pray

I love u all here on GT u guys are amazing!

God Bless!