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hey, i'm ellie. i'm 16 years old..i live in hell. i love blood, gore, death, pain, and black. i write to keep me alive and to keep me sane. i have anger management problems. i'm adhd, bipolar, and depressed. i have a messed up mind..i'm your worst enemy...i'm a non forgiver and a sinner and %@$! proud. i don't like crowds, i rather be alone in a dark place with a candle and a empty notebook. i don't take @@##% from people like i used too. i don't care what you think..go ahead label me. i hate people who try to be in the emo or goth crowd(they epically fail). i hate liars, fakes, preps, and cheaters. i don't like people basically. i don't have many friends..and the only friends i do have are slowly leaving me behind. i can care less anymore. i honestly rather be died than anything else..the pain would finally stop. i just lost my best friend brandon to a car accident..and i'm still #$@in crying over that. i'm not okay...so don't ask what's going on. because i won't tell you. i don't talk to people who talk like this "heyyy whtz up?" i talk to people who actually want to have a conversation. i'm adopted...so yeah i don't know my really family. i feel alone..and scarred... i've been asked where do you see yourself in 10 years...i said..in hell having a cocktail with satan. i'm not a satanist, or a atheist. i'm nothing...i do believe god did create earth. but i don't believe he can listen to me anymore... i'm alone...in this hellish world. i'm not crazy..because crazy is an understatement...insane is more like it.