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I don't know the best way to introduce myself without meeting someone in person so I'll rough it and attempt to introduce myself instead through my Baptismal Testimony to our Lord. After all we are all here because of our Lord and Savior to begin with! So, allow me to give glory where glory is rightly due. And that is by telling how the Lord came into my life.
First off I was Baptized and declared my belief in the Lord Jesus Christ as my one and only Savior about 1.7 years ago. So I guess I am still a baby yet in my walk. Or, so I've been told...? At my age one tends not to think of one's self as a baby anymore. But, just so happens, it is very much true. For all the intelligence I once thought I had I find that I have answers to all the wrong questions. And now I have boat loads of questions and not enough answers. Go figure! So much for the intelligence of man....
But, anyways, here is my testimony:
I guess that my story would start about six years ago(7 now). But, even in that, I have second guessed the choices made in my life. Anyway, back then I became homeless and that can be attributed to drinking, drugging, and not caring about anyone or anything. Of course becoming homeless is a good testimony as to how much I cared.
I didn't like me, I didn't like the world, and I blamed everything that was wrong in my life on everything and everyone else. I didn't like where I was and I couldn't see where I was going or where I would end up.
I lost everything and everyone that I loved that meant anything to me. It was that realization of the hurt that I caused that forced me to make some extremely unorthodox decisions in contrast to the way I was living at the time.
I realized that my life wasn't what it was supposed to be, or what it was meant to be, or what I wanted it to be. All because of the choices that I made, my decisions - my "plan", if you want to call it that, simply wasn't working. I was my own worst enemy. I also realized that if my plan wasn't working out that I needed a new plan. So I vowed, to myself, to try and get back to the ones I love, to regain some semblance of life.
I knew that being a drunk, an addict, and homeless was not a good way to start out so I put myself into a rehab center and then into a halfway house. That was over 4 (5) years ago now and I have my own apartment chock full of nice stuff, my kids are back in my life and I just recently quit smoking cigarettes as well.
I never dreamed that my life would turn out the way it has and I don't regret a single solitary thing. The only thing that I continue to second guess is whether or not those choices that I made were actually made by yonder truly. But as I think back about it I think not. My life has been literally reconstructed, redefined, and re-stored. I could never have made it this far this fast without a boatload of help and I know that you know what I mean. As I see it it was the Lord working hard, on, and, in, my life through all of it. My thanks to Him can simply never begin to cover it.
It was after about 3 years of living clean and sober that I started hearing about these, Left Behind books. All I knew, or heard about the story was that it had some religious connotation to it, something about the End Days or Armageddon, and something called, the Rapture.
The farther I read into those books the more scared I became. Scared because of the prophesies, scared of Gods wrath, scared of dying, scared of living, scared not to try and seek out the Lord and yes, scared of finding Him also. Those books lead me to a new awakening and new insights as they lead me straight to the bible.
It has been about 3 or 4 months now since I began my walk with the Lord and in the light. Since I cried out, literally, to the Lord and prayed He forgive me my sins. Since I decided I no longer wanted to walk in darkness and that I longed for the light. Since I chose, The Narrow Path; as it is called. I call it, A Tight Rope Walk. I call it this because I constantly debate, question, and doubt myself as I struggle and falter along the way on this path but yet I refuse to surrender this good path, this walk with the Lord. To me it is the good struggle it is the struggle to choose to live.
Hence you find me here today because everything about me has changed, is changing, and the world all around me is different. Everything and everyone is different.
So, seeing as I am battling without and within myself on a daily basis I figured I might better officially choose the best fight that I can fight considering it is my eternal soul that is at stake! And that is to fight for that which is good, righteous, and true. Fight for my eternal soul that God has given to me. Fight for the glory of God.
I thank the Lord, our God, for hunting me down and revealing His truth to me these past 6 or so years, as He continues to show His truth to me. I thank Him for giving me the chance to choose how to live.
I thank Him for guiding me on how not to choose death. I thank Him for loving this retch of a man before you. I thank the Lord Jesus Christ for dying for the sins of the likes of me, for the sins of all Mankind. I thank the Lord Jesus Christ for His resurrection and promise of eternal life.
But, most of all, I thank Him for His patience with me and allowing me to be included in the family of God.