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I'm a born again Gothic believer in Jesus Christ who used to be a Hate filled satanist who tried to take his own life three times. I stuck a knife in my throat and tried to bleed to death. I ran a stake knife across my throat like a saw, and tried to poison my self with laundry cleaner and The only reason I'm still breathing is because I knelt down, sunk my teeth in Jesus Christ wrist and drank his holy tasting blood. If you have a blood fetish, try this Blood and see if it suits your palate. I am utterly lost in his love. If you want to know how to drink his Blood then look up Romans 10:9-11 if you acknowledge and confess with your lips that Jesus is Lord and in your heart believe "adhere to, trust in, and rely on the truth that Jesus died for all of your sins, past, present and future" that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with the heart a person believes "adheres to, trusts in, and relies on Christ" and so is justified "declared righteous, acceptable to God", and with the mouth he/she confesses "speaks out loud his/her faith) and confirms his/her salvation. The Scripture says, No man or women who believes in Him "who adheres to, relies on, and trusts in Him" will "ever" be put to shame or be disappointed meaning Once saved always saved. If anyone tells you are lost again because you fell back into your old sins, that person is evil and God does not live in them. you should run away from such a person. Jesus said you will know them by there fruits and the fruit of the spirit is Love, not holy living. God desires love not Sacrifice. Psalm 51:17 My sacrifice "the sacrifice acceptable to God" is a broken spirit. A broken and a contrite heart "broken down with sorrow and in desperate need of love" O God, You will not despise. If you asked me Am I asleep or dead, most assuredly I would tell you I am DEAD.... in Christ. I HATE Satan with a passion, but I LOVE all you Satanist's, wiccans, buddhist, atheist's and all you other lovely's with all my heart. I base who I am, that being a Christian and a Goth on how God stitched me together in my mothers womb, not on someone else' opinion of me or what they think a true Christian or Goth is. I listen to Goth most of the time because that is what I am, but I Love Punk, metal, Rock, soft rock and other stuff as well. I share the good news of Salvation through the eyes of a Goth and our ways, however I am here to promote a personal intimate relationship with Jesus Christ not a Gothic life style, so don't feel left out if your not a Goth because I love you for who YOU are. I do not belong to a genre, sub genre a click or a philosophy, I belong to a person and he his name is Jesus Christ.I am his and he is mine. I am Irish and blessed proud of it. Most of my best friends in life are and have been women because I am more comfortable, get along with and relate to women more than guys, because I believe women look more at the heart than men. After God, my mom knew me the best. I am part of the G.L.F the Gothic liberation Front Fighting against the Evil empire known as Godhatesgoths.com. These people claim to be christian, but in reality they are the synagogue of Satan. My favorite verse is Psalm 139:11-12 If I say, surely the Darkness will hide me and the light become night around me, even the Darkness will not be Dark to you, the night will shine like the day, for Darkness is as light to you. These verse's are in no way talking about spiritual Darkness, because spiritual darkness is evil and destroys mankind. The Darkness it speaks of is Gothic. The Gothic way of life is deep the poetry, the morbid ways of explaining our selves. Real goth comes from the inside, that meaning goth comes from the hidden man or women of the heart, not the exterior or outward appearance of a person. The color of our cloths does not reflect the spiritual state of our souls. The only thing that reflects a persons spiritual state of light or dark is what that person is covered with. If that person is covered with sin, he or she is dark and dammed on the inside. But if that person is covered with the holy pure shed blood of Jesus Christ he or she is light and redeemed on the inside. Jesus loves you and wants you, but Satan hates you just for existing Satan is the destroyer of all. I struggle with my own hurts, habits, and hang ups and I need a Saviour in my life to carry the load when it gets to heavy for me. Just because I'm a saved sinner, that does not mean that I'm always happy or a happy person in general. I will always have joy & peace within my soul for what Jesus did for me. He redeemed my soul, my life & my sanity. I know what real insanity is and it's not a bad or stressful day, for me it was starring at a wall all day not knowing who I was or why I was here & the plethora of unanswered questions I had. Not every Christian fit's into the white fluffy perky bunny who walks around all day smiling acting like they have no problems, So please stop trying to mold us into your image and let us be who we are in Christ. If your a religious Pharisee poser preaching the law over Christ or Christ & the law to heaven, than you my friend are fake wolf in sheep's clothing, because the only way to heaven is the blood covering of Christ. Salvation is not about living a holy life or following a set of rules. in fact when someone tells you not to do something, you just want to do it more don't you? I remember telling a certain person my whole story, parts that are not even in my profile. I told this person how Jesus took away my insecurity, depression, codependency, thoughts of suicide and all he talked about was my drinking and smoking. He said when people see me drinking and smoking, there going to call me a hypocrite and say your just like every one else. well off course they would say that if they didn't know who the real Jesus is or the real message of his love and acceptance of them. Love me, I love you, Hate me, I love you. I have perfect Love living on the inside any way and no one can ever take away from me. Bottom line I am living proof that Jesus Christ is the Savior of the Broken, the Beaten & the Damned.