March 20th...
Written by goldiegrace007
Posted on Friday, March 21, 2008 at 12:26 AM.
Sooooo as it goes...I chose to stay at home with my daughters till they were ready for mommy to go to work....things were tight and I really had to rely on the Lord every step of the way...
When Brianna was 3, we were going for our usual daily walk along the river...it's soooo beautiful and fresh first thing in the morning...But on this day...it started with a prayer, saying Lord...my girls are growing and I don't have money to buy cloths for them....can you please bless me with some more babysitting jobs...and then we went on our walk....Brianna says to me...mommy...let's go down there for once...well down there was a street, busy with cars...we never walked there...there wasn't anything to see just cars...but wanting to please...I said as long as you hold the stroller the whole way..we can walk down this street....
As we were walking a car slowed down...I was cautious..and weery of strangers, but this woman rolled her window down and said hey....I see you walking with your little girl...and a baby..is the baby a girl too? I couldn't ignore her..so I said yes and kept walking...remember she's in a car...well hrmmpfff....the lady says...God told me to drive down this road today and give a woman walking with a buggy a box of clothes, my children had grown out of....that took me by surprise and I stopped....I wiped my eyes...it wasn't the sun....was I dreaming...she said..it would be too heavy for you to carry with the stroller can I know your address to drive it to your home....Ooooohh my gosh...can this be for real...am I suppose to talk to strangers let alone take things from them in front of my child...well Brianna said mommy, it's a miracle....we were praying for a babysitting job and she wants to give clothes. I told her my address and she met me at home.
I gave her a big hug and she said be blessed God is looking out for you....The past is the past...go forward...
I cried.....opening the box....I was soooo surprised....Having come from a wealthy home, and having been a model...I was trying not to care how we dressed...but I cared...I was lucky because I could wear the clothes from my modelling days....and here....and here...were clothes from Roots, from The Gap....my kids were stylin for a good two years with that box of clothes...When God takes care of you.....He sure knows what you like...
Life is good...I was healed from listening to all the condeming voices of my past...Life was peaceful and happy and God was there always...do you know...I walked and talked to Him all the day long and as my children grew...if there was a skirmish, two sisters you may know what I'm talking about...well I don't like to raise my voice....with a passion...I pursue peace over everything and sometimes they would get loud and I'd say God, daddy, husband, can you please go calm them down...I'm not wanting to touch that with a two foot pole...and sure enough....peace would flood the house and the two sisters would have such a change of heart....it's totally out of this world amazing....serious....one minute they'd be.....that's my toy gimme gimme gimmme waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh and I'd say God, daddy, husband....please help me I can't do that.....and it would change instantly and get this...they were upstairs and I was downstairs and all of a sudden I'd hear....I love you sister...you can have the toy...lets play bible study...I'll be the preacher...you get the stuffed animals and I'll prepare my sermon....
It was incredible!!! Out of this world flippin freakin...incredible....
Okay soooo listen to this...My bestest buddy friend adopted sister Audrey...she's a wise wise friend who taught me stuff like.....when you go somewhere, leave it cleaner than when you arrived...where ever you go...leave your mark of cleaner...she would say write a list of what you want from God....the list can include everything from the shower curtain you need to the debts your husband left you with.....well...I was stubborn...I said okay I'll make a list....but I'll handle the debts because it was my mistake to marry him and I'll get a job and deal with that later....I just shared that with her...well...over the year, I was crossing this and that and this off my list....till one day...at church I met this nice lady Noella...who really interested me because she cooked vegan and I was a cook on all other stuff except vegan..so I invited her to my home...
LIsten to this...now my list has been taken care of...I have a beautiful dining room set that my friend Audrey gave me...I have the shower curtain of my dreams...the bath mats...the kitchen rug...the chandilier...the t.v. the stereo...the toys galore....all given to me by this person or that...sooo inviting Noella, I was proud of my home....no one could know that I was not as rich as the jone's....Audrey taught me to not be shy with God...He's my father and I"m a kings kid, sooooo I could ask for anything....
Sooooo we had a lovely visit...I really enjoyed Noella's company and was hoping to invite her again...she said as much also....
Sooo when she showed up at my door the next morning...trying to hand me an envelope....I said nope ....no way......stop...I can't take that.....she said maybe God is trying to break your vanity....because we're listening to God and now you have to take this and listen to God...Gosh, I didn't want to be vain...what was I gonna do.....I couldn't take it...after all I didn't need it....I told her as much....She said than go buy your self a new dress....you need it.....what was she talking about...I looked after how I looked...I didn't need a new dress....I held onto that envelope for weeks...phoning them asking them to take it back, I couldn't take it.....Audrey said God's wanting to look after that ICBC bill that happened while you were married and the cheques bounced.....it's was $800 or $900 I can't remember....I finally accepted it joyfully and paid that debt with it....Does that make sense to you...? God says ask and you shall receive...pressed down shakin together and running over......Audrey had finally got to me and I prayed God would take care of that bill and He did!!!! IN the envelope was $1000......can you imagine?
If you think this can't happen again....right up until last year.....something happened that really rocked me to the core.....
Christmas morning 2006 my ex made an offer my children couldn't resist, they are 10 and 11 and he went from having them, sporatically for visits in his house that they shared a small room together...in my home they had their own rooms...but in my home the t'v was downstairs and that morning he had two rooms for them, with t.v.'s in both rooms...ninendo and ipods...digital cameras..sure I was working now and that in itself was a miracle...when some of my close friends were trying to find and keep jobs....God answered my prayer with a job close to home, with flexible hours with a supervisor that cared more than I could even believe...the friends at work who became like my sisters...I"m soooo blessed with that job....
But back to that fateful morning when my children packed their stuff up and went to live at my ex's....that broke my heart into a trillion pieces and just left me numb and void....I was soooooo sad and became a work aholic...but he tricked me....he said when the kids would be living at his house he would take over the cell phones i had just signed 3 year contracts for and three months later i get a bundle of mail that all of a sudden is $1200 for the cell phones that haven't been paid and they stopped the 3 year plan and billed me for the entire plan all at once.....I couldn't keep my townhouse...I wasn't paying subsidized rates anymore...I was paying full price.....they never returned my calls and I was soooooo in a bad spot...I didn't loose my faith but i let fear take hold again....I was alone after all...and I needed to find another place to live that's closer to work and would save me money....I didn't have my girls and I gave up on living....I threw away my bed...slept on the couch....I was a robot.....working 12 hours sleeping the rest...then my youngest said she liked the city she was living in and couldn't i move to her city sooo she could live with me and Brianna would live with me 1/2 the time....I jumped on the chance but really didn't have the money.. my car had broken down numerous times that year and finally it bit the dust...I left it to the auto wreckers graveyard...I didn't see how I was going to move and I prayed God help us....God please make a way for me to be closer to my children sooo that I could be part of their lives again....
Out of the blue....the really good friend of mine...with whom I never get a chance to visit...she has 5 children and homeschools plus her husband is the paster of the church, I used to go to that prayed for the charming spirit of my husbands not to enter the courtroom....well....fear was still griping my heart...I mean I lost my car....I lost my children....troubles come in three's dontcha know it....in the back of my head...I thought...maybe my ex was taking me back to court and Rose was somehow involved.....she had called and said she had something to give me....well the first thing that jumped in my head was....she's a court paper server...I forget what those people are called.....sooooooo I said ha no way....I'm not coming.....I emailed my friend Audrey and told her my fear.....she said I was being ridiculous and should give Rose a chance....well...I had to admit...my fears were becoming border line paranoia....I was sleep deprived and not eating right.....working too much.... my nerves were not running at par.....well...I phoned Rose and said okay...I'm coming.....
This is not chance...this is not luck...this is not some wild fluke!
God is at work in my life...and I hope I can give back ten fold to what He's given me through this life.....
Do you know what Rose had......an envelope....an envelope of money.....In it was $800, enough for moving and more......my damage deposit, my move....ooooooohhh man, she'd listened to God and helped me......
Today I sit and pray that God blesses me with a job that provides money enough that I can give to the people He shows me triple the amount that was given to me....
I want to be used of Him, with my cooking, my baking, my will to serve.....I want to bless the weary and the broken hearted...I want to bless the single mother, the mother who's lost her children...the person...who's lonely...I have time...I have a listening ear...I want to pray for you ....I want to believe for you..to see your needs met.....I want to go on missions...I want to share my story...because without a doubt....I don't want to say the bad things that happened to me...but I've been there....I feel your pain....I know God can answer your prayers...open your heart....ask and ye shall receive..have faith...all you need is a tiny seed of the mustard seed...I didn't feel deserving...I still don't.....I'm not perfect....God loves the sinner...He wants to save you.......He's waiting!!
When Brianna was 3, we were going for our usual daily walk along the river...it's soooo beautiful and fresh first thing in the morning...But on this day...it started with a prayer, saying Lord...my girls are growing and I don't have money to buy cloths for them....can you please bless me with some more babysitting jobs...and then we went on our walk....Brianna says to me...mommy...let's go down there for once...well down there was a street, busy with cars...we never walked there...there wasn't anything to see just cars...but wanting to please...I said as long as you hold the stroller the whole way..we can walk down this street....
As we were walking a car slowed down...I was cautious..and weery of strangers, but this woman rolled her window down and said hey....I see you walking with your little girl...and a baby..is the baby a girl too? I couldn't ignore her..so I said yes and kept walking...remember she's in a car...well hrmmpfff....the lady says...God told me to drive down this road today and give a woman walking with a buggy a box of clothes, my children had grown out of....that took me by surprise and I stopped....I wiped my eyes...it wasn't the sun....was I dreaming...she said..it would be too heavy for you to carry with the stroller can I know your address to drive it to your home....Ooooohh my gosh...can this be for real...am I suppose to talk to strangers let alone take things from them in front of my child...well Brianna said mommy, it's a miracle....we were praying for a babysitting job and she wants to give clothes. I told her my address and she met me at home.
I gave her a big hug and she said be blessed God is looking out for you....The past is the past...go forward...
I cried.....opening the box....I was soooo surprised....Having come from a wealthy home, and having been a model...I was trying not to care how we dressed...but I cared...I was lucky because I could wear the clothes from my modelling days....and here....and here...were clothes from Roots, from The Gap....my kids were stylin for a good two years with that box of clothes...When God takes care of you.....He sure knows what you like...
Life is good...I was healed from listening to all the condeming voices of my past...Life was peaceful and happy and God was there always...do you know...I walked and talked to Him all the day long and as my children grew...if there was a skirmish, two sisters you may know what I'm talking about...well I don't like to raise my voice....with a passion...I pursue peace over everything and sometimes they would get loud and I'd say God, daddy, husband, can you please go calm them down...I'm not wanting to touch that with a two foot pole...and sure enough....peace would flood the house and the two sisters would have such a change of heart....it's totally out of this world amazing....serious....one minute they'd be.....that's my toy gimme gimme gimmme waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh and I'd say God, daddy, husband....please help me I can't do that.....and it would change instantly and get this...they were upstairs and I was downstairs and all of a sudden I'd hear....I love you sister...you can have the toy...lets play bible study...I'll be the preacher...you get the stuffed animals and I'll prepare my sermon....
It was incredible!!! Out of this world flippin freakin...incredible....
Okay soooo listen to this...My bestest buddy friend adopted sister Audrey...she's a wise wise friend who taught me stuff like.....when you go somewhere, leave it cleaner than when you arrived...where ever you go...leave your mark of cleaner...she would say write a list of what you want from God....the list can include everything from the shower curtain you need to the debts your husband left you with.....well...I was stubborn...I said okay I'll make a list....but I'll handle the debts because it was my mistake to marry him and I'll get a job and deal with that later....I just shared that with her...well...over the year, I was crossing this and that and this off my list....till one day...at church I met this nice lady Noella...who really interested me because she cooked vegan and I was a cook on all other stuff except vegan..so I invited her to my home...
LIsten to this...now my list has been taken care of...I have a beautiful dining room set that my friend Audrey gave me...I have the shower curtain of my dreams...the bath mats...the kitchen rug...the chandilier...the t.v. the stereo...the toys galore....all given to me by this person or that...sooo inviting Noella, I was proud of my home....no one could know that I was not as rich as the jone's....Audrey taught me to not be shy with God...He's my father and I"m a kings kid, sooooo I could ask for anything....
Sooooo we had a lovely visit...I really enjoyed Noella's company and was hoping to invite her again...she said as much also....
Sooo when she showed up at my door the next morning...trying to hand me an envelope....I said nope ....no way......stop...I can't take that.....she said maybe God is trying to break your vanity....because we're listening to God and now you have to take this and listen to God...Gosh, I didn't want to be vain...what was I gonna do.....I couldn't take it...after all I didn't need it....I told her as much....She said than go buy your self a new dress....you need it.....what was she talking about...I looked after how I looked...I didn't need a new dress....I held onto that envelope for weeks...phoning them asking them to take it back, I couldn't take it.....Audrey said God's wanting to look after that ICBC bill that happened while you were married and the cheques bounced.....it's was $800 or $900 I can't remember....I finally accepted it joyfully and paid that debt with it....Does that make sense to you...? God says ask and you shall receive...pressed down shakin together and running over......Audrey had finally got to me and I prayed God would take care of that bill and He did!!!! IN the envelope was $1000......can you imagine?
If you think this can't happen again....right up until last year.....something happened that really rocked me to the core.....
Christmas morning 2006 my ex made an offer my children couldn't resist, they are 10 and 11 and he went from having them, sporatically for visits in his house that they shared a small room together...in my home they had their own rooms...but in my home the t'v was downstairs and that morning he had two rooms for them, with t.v.'s in both rooms...ninendo and ipods...digital cameras..sure I was working now and that in itself was a miracle...when some of my close friends were trying to find and keep jobs....God answered my prayer with a job close to home, with flexible hours with a supervisor that cared more than I could even believe...the friends at work who became like my sisters...I"m soooo blessed with that job....
But back to that fateful morning when my children packed their stuff up and went to live at my ex's....that broke my heart into a trillion pieces and just left me numb and void....I was soooooo sad and became a work aholic...but he tricked me....he said when the kids would be living at his house he would take over the cell phones i had just signed 3 year contracts for and three months later i get a bundle of mail that all of a sudden is $1200 for the cell phones that haven't been paid and they stopped the 3 year plan and billed me for the entire plan all at once.....I couldn't keep my townhouse...I wasn't paying subsidized rates anymore...I was paying full price.....they never returned my calls and I was soooooo in a bad spot...I didn't loose my faith but i let fear take hold again....I was alone after all...and I needed to find another place to live that's closer to work and would save me money....I didn't have my girls and I gave up on living....I threw away my bed...slept on the couch....I was a robot.....working 12 hours sleeping the rest...then my youngest said she liked the city she was living in and couldn't i move to her city sooo she could live with me and Brianna would live with me 1/2 the time....I jumped on the chance but really didn't have the money.. my car had broken down numerous times that year and finally it bit the dust...I left it to the auto wreckers graveyard...I didn't see how I was going to move and I prayed God help us....God please make a way for me to be closer to my children sooo that I could be part of their lives again....
Out of the blue....the really good friend of mine...with whom I never get a chance to visit...she has 5 children and homeschools plus her husband is the paster of the church, I used to go to that prayed for the charming spirit of my husbands not to enter the courtroom....well....fear was still griping my heart...I mean I lost my car....I lost my children....troubles come in three's dontcha know it....in the back of my head...I thought...maybe my ex was taking me back to court and Rose was somehow involved.....she had called and said she had something to give me....well the first thing that jumped in my head was....she's a court paper server...I forget what those people are called.....sooooooo I said ha no way....I'm not coming.....I emailed my friend Audrey and told her my fear.....she said I was being ridiculous and should give Rose a chance....well...I had to admit...my fears were becoming border line paranoia....I was sleep deprived and not eating right.....working too much.... my nerves were not running at par.....well...I phoned Rose and said okay...I'm coming.....
This is not chance...this is not luck...this is not some wild fluke!
God is at work in my life...and I hope I can give back ten fold to what He's given me through this life.....
Do you know what Rose had......an envelope....an envelope of money.....In it was $800, enough for moving and more......my damage deposit, my move....ooooooohhh man, she'd listened to God and helped me......
Today I sit and pray that God blesses me with a job that provides money enough that I can give to the people He shows me triple the amount that was given to me....
I want to be used of Him, with my cooking, my baking, my will to serve.....I want to bless the weary and the broken hearted...I want to bless the single mother, the mother who's lost her children...the person...who's lonely...I have time...I have a listening ear...I want to pray for you ....I want to believe for you..to see your needs met.....I want to go on missions...I want to share my story...because without a doubt....I don't want to say the bad things that happened to me...but I've been there....I feel your pain....I know God can answer your prayers...open your heart....ask and ye shall receive..have faith...all you need is a tiny seed of the mustard seed...I didn't feel deserving...I still don't.....I'm not perfect....God loves the sinner...He wants to save you.......He's waiting!!
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