goldiegrace007's Blog

Let's see if this works.....ooohh my gosh I couldn't wait till Wednesday to tell you what happened....

See from the very beginning I wasn't suppose to be born...the doctor said to my polish mom, you have to abort the baby..it's going to be a monster....(she told me this) When she said she couldn't, he kicked her out of his office and said, you damm foreigners coming to Canada to let us look after your monsters....I was suppose to be born missing limbs, being completely retarded and horrific looking....My mom was just freaked out...what the heck was she going to do...she couldn't very well go home to her husband who was a correctional officer, builder by trade, german, thinking he was superior and him never even wanting children, let alone monsters....He was striving for the perfect life...this just wouldn't do...she tried to end her life while I was in her....yup, we survived...and onto the pregnancy, when she was due to deliver and her water broke...she told me it took 7 days for me to come out, she lost a lot of blood and had a near death experience...she said she didn't want to come back, she wanted Jesus to take her away....but God told her she had to go back and the light vanished....she came back but was a vegetable.....My dad, not a believer yet....didn't know what else to do when they sent her home because they couldn't do anything more, he drove her to Los Angeles to go to the healer he'd heard about called Kathryn Kuhlman.

She was carried in....and when Kathryn Kuhlman called her up to the front, was instantly healed and left completely okay..

Skip ahead to when I was 15, we travelled around Europe, and in this particular instant, we were on a train from Rome to Spain and here we are on a cliff on some mountain, the train screeches to a halt and the officials run through the train shouting la bombe, la bombe, everybody starts screaming and running out of the train, luckily there was an abandoned bombed train on the track beside and we all hid under that train, it turned out that my mom stayed calm and was praying in english and this sculpture who sculpted some statue in the vatican could understand her and he said why are you so calm and she told him how I was suppose to be aborted yada yada yada and how she felt it just wasn't our time to die...he was italien and understood the officials said it's clear to come back on and we left to go to Spain...the very next week on the same train, another bomb was on it and it exploded and killed something like 14 people...

When I was 16ish, my mom and I and sister were waiting at a stop light for the light to turn green, ahead of us was a cement wall, and you could only turn right or left...there was some honking behind us when my mom turned to the side to see what was up, there straight ahead was a rig, who lost his brakes and steering and was coming straight for us...my mom froze...she could of gone left but froze...people behind us said they were believers but said there must of been a wall of angels standing in front of our car, because just as it was about to hit, it made a sharp turn to the right and smacked into the cement wall, the trucker lived to say, he too thought his life was over and he was sure our lives were over..it was a miracle...

At 17, I was a fashion model and was 5 foot 10 and under 100 pounds, I fell down some stairs and really hurt my back. The next morning, I thought I was paralyzed, I couldn't moved and screamed for my mom to come and get me help....She helped me and somehow in great pain, I made it to the doctor, who took exrays and said I had three compressed discs, he gave me pain killers and muscle relaxants and told me to go to physio and chiropractors...for the next year, I lived with excruciating pain and ate pain killers like they were candy...in one situation, I was still working, and I was taking the pain killers and muscle relaxants and working at the Woolworths at hasting street in downtown Vancouver, not a nice area, this one morning, my tummy hurt and i wasn't thinking straight, I didn't eat anything and I took all 4 pills on an empty stomach...by the time I went from Port Coquitlam to Vancouver, I got off the bus and felt really strange...I had I just got into Woolworth's and passed out in the stairs, my boss found me lying down and when the ambulance came I didn't know who I was....or where I was and later when I recovered...my boss said I was damm lucky I didn't pass out in the street....I really think that God had me in his care, cuz that was really amazing...

Anyhooo...a year went by and I was taking all the pills just managing to barely survive....the pain killers didn't kill the pain just took the pearce out of of the stab...I was loosing complete feeling from my left side hip to my left leg and toes...Physio and chiro would only provide minutes of relief by the time I got off the bed or out of traction....the disc's slid back and I was back to square one...I was soooo sick and tired of this I finally asked to go see a specialist. I turned around and saw a couple cuz the answer I got was, I would need an operation to cut the disc's in half and they could only give 50/50 chance of walking...I really didn't like those odds and told them I would try the prayer meeting at my mom's house first before I let them cut me open....Why didn't I go to the prayer meeting first of all, well, I had to really humble myself and stop my judgements and I think I needed to be broken before I truely came....the ladies prayed and then said, you are healed, go dancing and skiing and do everything you couldn't do since this accident happened...I was astounded first for them to have such authority to say I was healed, did I feel it...I wasn't sure...they said don't you dare look back....you are healed get going....Hey I loved dancing before this happened and here these christian ladies were telling me to go dancing...I felt fine and I went and that's the end of that..my feeling came back that evening, the pain killers were stopped the muscle relaxers were stopped and I didn't feel like I had anything wrong with my back, it truley was a miracle...serious

The doctor didn't know what happened, he couldn't explain it and said, whatever you do, don't have any children, because if you gain any sort of weight, you'll be flat on your back and I won't be able to gurantee you'll walk...

Well jump ahead to my short lived marriage, I gained close to 80 pounds when I was pregnant just to show the doctor that when God heals, he doesn't do things halfway....I wasn't the least bit scared...I knew I was really healed...by the time my first born was hmmmm 12 months old, I was pregnant again and without saying too much, let just leave it as things were really rough back then and it was affecting Brianna my firstborn. Everytime daddy would come home, she'd crawl to the wall and start banging her head back and forth on the wall..I took her to the doctor and he said, for the sake of your children, get your husband to counselling or divorce him and get out...

Well, he never made the time for counselling and things were bad, my next door neighbor heard the goings on and helped me...see I was from a wealthy home and had no idea about what to do if I needed to leave my husband, where would I go..My parents said if I divorced him, they would disown me...I made my bed I need to lay in it....

The marriage led to estrangement of my friends and really I had no one to run to...my next door neighbor helped me, she told me about a shelter and through the shelter, and calling a friend from elementary school, I was able to go to make an appointment to get on a 2 year waiting list for subsidized housing...i went there and asked the lady please just find me a hole in the wall that is safe and clean and i'll be the happiest person in the world...you see...with my ex...I was married for a year and a half, i experienced for the first time in my life...cockroaches...hundreds of fleas...mice crawling around the floor when I was nursing my newborn on a mattress on the floor...

It takes my breath away to remember this....there I was not knowing where the money was going to come from..where I was going to live, I had a toddler and was pregnant...the lady shocked me and said...if you can come back in a couple hours...i will take you to your new home, and don't you worry about paying, you just get settled and then go to welfare and when they pay us it'll all work out...

Well a few hours later and i thought i was going to get a small teeny tiny bachelor pad...and believe me, I was counting my blessing for that thought...wow, this lady was helping me and she didn't even know us...I was soooo touched....you'll never believe it, after what i lived through...she took me to what seemed like a castle..it was a two bedroom split level, corner unit, townhome...the front yard over looked a beautiful river and a yard that had swings, a merry go round and a slide... there was a big grass field land a path along the river for walks....she took me into my new home and I cried...it's too big, you can't be for real, this can't be mine...how could I possible afford it..she said..your safe..you have good neighbors and a place for your chlldren to find peace, take it and rest, don't worry everything will take care of itself...well it was surely a miracle...my neighbors some were seniors that were sooo loving and caring, and there were young european families..it was heaven...eagles came to the trees in front of my living room, raccoons, rabbits, coyotes, snakes... I loved them all....nothing could be nicer than the pests I had lived with....

There are tons I mean tons of miracles to come... I need to go to sleep, worked 11 hours will try to continue tomorrow just you wait...it's incredible!!! God is Awesome!!!! Be encouraged!