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Not much to now about me but to know how i became a christian. Well i lived a normal life but my dad had an attitude like a bull and my mom divorced him. So, i went from a 2 1/2 story house to a trailer but i didn't really care because i was never a spoiled bratt. During the time i lived there i stareted to hang out with the wrong crowd and doing stuff a 11 year shouldn't be doing. I sarted to do drugs and i got addicted for about one year or two not to sure. A lot stuff started to happen around me like losing my good friends because of my language, so i was mostly alone during scool except for one friend. I remenber once i got high and went to a friends little sister b-day party and did something so dumb. I'll never know why but somehow i was upside down on a couch laughing for know reason. After the party i was walking home and my sister was sreaming at me, "stop doing drugs please or else i'll tell mom". The look of her face didn't bother me and just kept living my life in shame. I've also gone through a lot of criticism from family for example my grampa criticized my mom and called her a 100% devil and my house was a peace !#*_^# (what a christian he was). That piont of my life really broke me and i wanted to cry but didn't let myself because my dad came and wasn't aware of what just happen. One of the experiences i have learned about life is that it is filled with rejection and my story is that my dad told i wasn't his son (2). I just wanted a dad and never had one, yeah there was JESUS, but have a relationship with him and didn't know who he was. Another time i was in the car with him and he asked, "do you love me", but I stayed quiet because the thought of saying yes made me feel guilty because he was never there. The point is i never had a someone to teach how to be a man, someone to play football with, someone just to be there, and someone to be a father to his son. Not sure how to start the next chapter of my life but soon i will complete it, Laters and god bless