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Hello I am Crystal, some know me as Cj either one of those are fine with me. I was born in San Diego, California, but raised out here in Colorado Springs Colorado. I love it out here, the mountains are the best and are so beautiful, I couldn't ask for a better place to live at, maybe some more things to do, but thats about it. I am also a Christian gave my life to God in my sophomore year of high school( read my testimony at the end of this) and love every minute of my life with him, but let me tell you I am not one of those Christians that force things down people's throats.I just let people choose what they want to believe in and what not, I am very opened minded person when it comes to beliefs and what not. I am also interested in the paranormal and I just joined a a group where I am called Colorado Researchers Of Paranormal Science a.k.a CORPS. I am excited to see how this group is what exciting things we'll get into and what not. I know some people think that the paranormal is evil and what not, but there is a good and bad to everything I am interested in it for a reason and believe in the things I believe in for a reason, please don't not judge me or hate me by that all I am doing is trying to find answers to some things and also trying to help others out there that are experiencing similar things and what not and are in some sort of help on what they are experiencing the point is to try to explain the unknowen as well as help people, nothing more nothing less. Everyone has there opinions and I respect that, but don't go lashing out at others for what they believe in because in the end not only will you push the people in your life out of your life, you'll also destroy yourself, I've had my fair share of that in the pass and it's not pretty, so respect others for what they believe in and also stand on your rock and never let people take you down and try to change the person you are. Believe in what you want to believe in and stay the person you are. That just doesn't go for beliefs but other things as well. Stand up for yourself and don't worry about what other people think or say, because only you know who you are and that is all that matters. Im a loving caring person I take things to heart I take anyone and anything under my wing I love to make people smile and make them feel better and I also have a huge passion for animals and helping all God creatures in some way, which in fact I am going to school and I am studying zookeeping technology and I am excited to see where I'm going to go with that, I am not sure what excatly what I want to do other then as longer as I am working with animals I am happy, maybe one day I'll have my own rescue center and release animals back into the wild and educate people about all the wonderful and beautiful creatures we have in this world, who knows, either way I love animals and am welling to do anything for them. I am also an adventuress person I'm pretty much up to everything and anything and I love being outdoors and enjoying all the wonderful things the great Lord has created and I Just love having a good time. Something I'll admit I am a very very sensitive person and take things to heart and at times I can over react on things. Sometimes they'll be days that one second I am happy one second hells broken lose, I'm working on that, but all together I'm pretty down to earth, good hearted and fun person to be around with and I am a lot more stable then a lot of people think, just set down with me and get to know me and you'll see. I start out a bet shy, but after awhile I can be a goof ball, but at the same time I can be serious and I am also a tom boy, but I do have a girly side to me, but I'm not one of those girls that is all into fashion and that worries about the way I look and what not, I'm happy with the way I look and just a pair of jeans and just a t-shirt no fancy stuff and not a whole lot of make up either, just all natural, not a whole lot of crap, just your next door neighbor girl, that is one of the boys hehe :-p. I love to sing and I love all types of music from Christian to Rock To Country to R&B and blues and I also like new age anything that tells a good story and brings you into another world I like. I really do not like rap, I don't understand how that is considered music to me it's just fast talking with a beat nothing more. I play music and sing I play the violin and any other instrument I can get my hands on and I pick music up by ear and I also enjoy art of all kinds from drawing to painting to photography to music, I draw and do photography for fun art and music are two great things that have you just open your mind up and just explore and go into a totally diffrent world. I also enjoy sports I like pretty much any type of sport, except for golf, my favorites are Ice hockey, football, and nascar and a bet of baseball. I'm a huge Colorado Avalanche hockey fan, and I also support my Denver Broncos and Colorado Rockies. Got to root for the home time ya know. I enjoy making new friends and chatting ( even though I'm a bet shy).I really don't have many friends, but God has blessed me with some awesome people in my life and I know one day I'll get more friends I also love challenging myself and Im pretty much an open book anything you want to know I'll answer truthfully and honestly and I'll flat out tell you how I feel about something no playing around the bush here, and if you don't like that to bad. There is so much more about me that I can not type if you have anything else you want to know about me go ahead and ask :-D TESTIMONY HOW I CAME TO KNOW THE LORD I grew up in a Catholic family home with my Dad and my Grandmother. We didnt go to church much, it was hard for my Grandmother to be able to go do to an injury from a fall she had, but I what I remember from the time we went it was very strict, I would have to wear a dress, bless myself before going into the church and doing pretty much whatever the priest said. It was very boring to me and I never could understand what the Priest talked about, who was this Lord? He was talking about? Why do I have to learn about him? One thing I did like was Sunday school because I didnt have to be bored listening to the priest, but one thing I loved about Sunday school was the coloring, I remember seeing different pictures of Jesus in different colors, mine would be blues as other were pink or red. HAHA! Those times were great, but as I get older we started going to church less and less, and then when I was in 7th grade my Grandmother passed away at our house after battling mini strokes and other illnesses. It took me and my family very hard, specially me, I pretty much shut myself from the World and went into a secret depression, and at the same time me and my Dad and I stopped going to church and I became very angry with God because of what happened and for taking my grandmother from me. I couldnt understand why he let that happen. I didnt come back to church or to the Lord until I was 16, back in November of 2004, during one of my hardest times of my life, other then my Grandmother death. I was at a friends house doing homework and talking about my day at school, when the phone rang and it was one of my Aunts, as she was talking to my friends Mom on the phone I sense something was wrong. After my friends Mom got off the phone, I saw a sad look on her face, she said Crystal, I need to talk to you, its your Dad. My heart just sank, whats wrong with my Dad? What happened? Hes had an heart attack and he had to go to into emergency heart surgery, and they dont think hes going to make it I just fell to me knees and cried I didnt know what to say. My friends Mom brought me into her arms, as I cried. I asked, What am I going to do? where am I going to stay? My Dad is all I got She said you can stay with us until we figure out what to do. A couple days later I went to the hospital to see my Dad, my friends Mom let me go in by myself, since my Aunts and other relatives were in there. I couldnt believe what I saw, my Dad was hooked up to every machine you can think of and it scared me to death. I began to cry non stop, my Aunt Theresa brought me into her arms and said Baby, its ok, hes in the Lords hands, and the Lord is going to heal him. I looked at her and said, Yeah, right why would he care? She looked at me and said, he cares because he loves you and you are his child. That is why he cares. I looked at her and said ok and then she goes Crystal, I want you to come to church with me in a couple of days, would you do that? Sure, I said. But deep inside I didnt want to go. A couple days later I went to with her, this church was different then the one I use to go to. Everyone there was happy and talkative. Then we went into singing praise and worship, everyone had their hands up, some people were crying, some were yelling word like Praise The Lord! And Glory! At first I thought these people were nuts, but then I started clapping and dancing to the music, but then it all stopped and the pastor began to pray and read the bible, I felt this feeling of love that words can not explain. Then the pastor stopped and said The Lord wants me to do something, and then he came to me and asked my name, and I told him and then he goes the Lord just told me youre going through a struggle and youre afraid of something, what is it that is brothering you? I told him about my Dad, and he goes Im sorry deer, but the Lord wants you to know, do not fear, your Dad is in his hands, hes going to heal him, and everything is going to be ok. I looked at him with tears in my eyes, and then he goes lets pray for him, everyone joined him and then after he prayed he asked, are you saved? Whats that? I asked Do you have Jesus in your heart? I said no He asked Would you like to let him in your heart, start a new life with and see all the wonderful things he has in store for you? And I said Yes. After I said yes I felt this relief, I felt all the pain I was in get lifted off of me and I felt like a new person. A few days later I went to go see my Dad and the doctors have removed all the tubes on him and said hes going to make it, its a miracle. I looked at my Aunt Theresa who was with me in shock and smiled and said see what the Lord did for you? I just smiled and said Yes. When I think about what happened these scriptures come to mind from the book of Isaiah Chapter 40 verses 28-31 and chapter 41 10-13. Do you now know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God the creator of the ends of the Earth. He will not grow tired or weary and his understanding no on can farthing. He gives strength to the weary and increase the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew strength. The will soar on winds like eagles; they will run and not grow weary they will walk and not be faint. SO DONT NOT FEAR, for I am with you; do no dismayed, for I am your god I will strengthen you and help you; I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand. All who rage against you will surely be ashamed and disgraced. Those who oppose you will be nothing and perish, though you search for your enemies you will not find them. Those who wage war against you will be nothing at all. FOR I AM THE LORD, YOUR GOD WHO TAKES HOLD OF YOUR RIGHT HAND AND SAYS DO NOT FEAR I AM WITH YOU. Ever since that day I let Jesus in my heart and he healed my Dad, my life changed I am a new person, I am more at peace and I no longer fear lifes struggles because I know my Lord My God will always be there for me no matter what. I have a new purpose in life and I am a new person in Christ