Seasons of GriefAre you going through a season of grief where you are struggling to grieve?
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For all of you who know, most of you know Im a christian and you may be wondering why, so i thought i would write my testimony on here for everyone. Enjoy Well, I guess it all started when i was about 16, when one of my brothers Adam one day became a christian. I didnt really think much of it, I just thought its just church and he has some religion, But I began to notice some changes in him. He was different and alot more calm, nice and freindly. I just liked being in the same room with him, there was some sort of peace about him and I didnt know what it was. I then found out he had became a christian. So i left that to one side and just carried on life as usual. So now we are in the college years and now all of a sudden i start getting all these question popping up and things start changing. I started to wonder what im going to do with my life, what will i do after college.. then... There has to be more to life than just being born, going to school, getting an education, getting a job, partying and getting drunk and having $@@@!, then after all that retire and get old and crinkly and then die.......die.. no more existence..... It was all so meaningless, if our ultimate and inevitable destiny is to die, whats the point in life, it dosn't mater whether im good or bad because at the end of the day were all just going to die. There has to be more, that cant be it!!! then other questions came up why are we here? what happens when we die? is there any meaning to life? You know whenever i took the time to sit outside on a dark clear night and look at all the stars it was amazing. There just so many, and this universe is massive beyond my comprehension. Now Im too bothered about how and when this univerese came into being, I want to know who and why? they are the questions that need answering here. So ive hit this roadblock in my life, I can either do two things, 1- carry on to live this meaningless life and just live life my way and do whatever i want to do with my life and then die or 2- I could atleast do something meanigfull in searching for meaning, searching for answers for the rest of my life, and if i find answers then ive gained an eternity of truth, and if not, then ive lost nothing but a meaningless life in the 1st place, I life destined to die and never exisit again. .......if you've read this far you probally thinking " what is going on, this is all just too deep ", thats exactly what i thought when this was happening to me. but keep reading as my life continues. ok, so i began searching for my answers, man,,, i had so many questions about everything!!, I went on the internet, read books, talked to loads of people . Now im not going to give you all the answers because that would take forever, but i can tell you the importent things i discovered. is there even a God..?....... well, I found out that there is.........,...ok so the universe and time itself as we know had a beggining and since it had a beggining that means one of either two things 1- nothing created everything or 2- something created everything now for me, this was a no brainer, Ok theres a God, But with so many relgions, which God is it, they cant all be true becuase they all contradict eachother. Either ones right, all there all wrong. So next someone came along and says to me quoting a bible passage in which jesus says " I am the life, the truth and the way, no one comes to the father (God) except through me " john 14:6. Here we have Jesus ( who i wasnt even sure existed , or was just some moral teacher ) saying that he is the truth, the true way... and the way, not a way, but THE way. and that none of us can know God or be with God except through him . Now what on earth did he mean by through me - well then this guy shoots back with this passage that Jesus says " For God sent his only beloved son that whoever believes in him shall not perish, but have everlasting life " john 3:16 why do we have to believe in him... again he answers with with " For ALL have sinned and fall short of the glory of God " romans 3:23 so Here it says that everyone has chosen to rebel against God, basicly we dont want anything do with him, we want life our way. God repects our human free will, and lets us choose that, which bascily is sin. and like wise us not wanting God , God dosnt want people who dont want him, sinners if you like. Now if your not going to be with God then your going to be without him, and when you die you will either choose to be with him in heaven or without him, and thats b@##!$icly hell, seperation from God from your own choice . Ok, so I was quite tired of this bible bashing so far, and maby you are aswell, I mean at this point i didnt even believe the bible, but it was interesting to see what it said about my big questions so i carried on. So according to the bible im left with choice with or without God, obviously i want God, but it seems as he said in the bible that we all have sinned and sin seperates us from him, so how do we get rid of this sin to be with God. He goes on to say quoting another bible passage that " the penalty of sin is death " romans 6:23, now not death as in no more existing, but death as in dying and going to be without God in hell. Ok, now here is where i was very interested and somewhat compelled to. He goes on to say that God loves us so much that he sent his Son to earth to die a death on a cross to pay the penalty for our sins and that if we put our faith and trust and hope in his sacrifice for us we will be saved and be WITH him when we die. So rather than God giving us what we deserved which was death and seperation from him , he has instead took upon himself our punishment and given us mecry and grace and love. This is Gods gift to us, its now our choice whether we accept it or not, for me i thought well ive got nothing to lose and alot to gain. So I gave my life to Jesus, asking him for forgivness and to be saved through his sacrifice. .............MAN, that was alot of bible for me!..but before i did that I still needed answers to questions like who is Jesus anyway, according to the bible he was the son of God, in other words he was God taking on human flesh taking our punishment upon himself. The only one who could save us inessence from Himself. when it think about son of God being God i didnt understand , but then i relized something...... the son of a dog is a dog the son of a lion is a lion the son of a pig is a pig the son of God is God now they say Jesus died on a cross and then rose again 3 days later and appeared to his followers, showing that he had defeated sin and death and rose again in new llife proving his God powers over life and to tell us of the hope that lay ahead of all who believe in him that they too will be raised unto new life. Now Jesus says as recorded in these written accounts by his followers saying " I and the father are one" at another time some relgious people of his day asked him " are you the son of God," and Jesus replys " I am ", then they say " what more do we need, here a mere man claims to be God " then thats why that crucified him as punishment for saying such a thing. I was puzzled by this, why would someone Lie about such a thing, and then be wlling to die for a lie , likewise with his disiples , why would they tell people he has risen and then be willing to die for a lie, be willing to be persected, mocked, beaten up, lose there jobs and familys, lose there place in society, and then even be martyerd and killed, some by crucifiction, some by stoning. Why would they willingly and knowingly die for a lie..........the only thing that made sense was that he did rise from the dead. ok, im going to stop here becuase i have alot other questions like these that i coould spend forever answering. As i look back let me answer those questions i had at the beggining. why are we here? ----- God choose to create us , becuase he is love, he created us to love us. He created and knows each one of us, and wants us to be live for him, with him in love, We are here to be in a relatonship with the living God ------- is there any meaning to life ? -----YES.. To love and worship God. To live for him, to know him, to serve him, to love others and worship him togther. Im not just some spec in a infinte universe, but I am loved and known by God who created it all! What happens when we die? ---well, its our choice , we can choose to be with or without God, We have sin, God took our sin away if we trust in his sacrifice for us. After we die, we live forever in either one of those choices. if youve read this far, thanks for reading, if you scrolled down to the bottom, go back up you lazy person!. Since being a christian, iit dosnt mean i have all the answers, but i do have the ones that matter, I still struggle with all, i still ask, but one thing i know after considering and searching and praying to a God i wasnt even sure exsited, he answered and showed to me that he does exsit and that he wants to know me. I know now that it would take more faith to go anywhere else other than Jesus Christ for the answers to my questions about life. My challange to you is will you take on the search?, will you not only just ask the questions, but never give up looking for answers. Go for it i say, And Im here to help you. If you want to know God for yourself then just ask him to reveal himself in yoiur life. Note that i havnt told you which so called God or relgions God to ask this to,Just ask God in general, God is more than able to hear you , hes God and if he is there he will reveal the truth about the matter, if hes not there you only wasted 20 or seconds of life, Thats the way i saw it, i mean ive got nothing to lose and alot to gain. Ill leave it with you..... Thanks for reading God Bless you chris here are some things that hepled me on my search books- case for christ- Lee Strobel ( who is jesus?, did he even exist? ) case for a creator- Lee Strobel ( does God even exist ? ) case for faith - Lee Strobel ( How can loving God allwo suffering and evil ? ) Choosing your faith - Mark Mittelberg ( with so many religions, how can we know who is true ? ) the reason for God - Timothy Keller ( does God exsit , who is jesus, the bible is just a myth ? ) reasonable faith - Willaim Lane Craig ( is christianity true, does god exsit , who is jesus ect ? ) Websites www.gotquestions.com ( ask any question you like !---- " I think these guys are tired of me lol " ) www.leestrobel.com www.reasonablefaith.com ww.youtube.com just search with whatever questions you have www.google.com " " " Get a bible if you like, have a read, read the gospels in the new testment which are the eyewitness written accounts of the followers of Jesus.