Sandrad36's Blog

Today my oldest is turning 15 and as I reflect back where I was 15 years ago I am so thankful to where God has brought me. I can't believe what God has done in me and how he has turned my life around!!! What an amazing God we serve.



I was 20 going on 21 when I had Megan. My life up to this point had consisted of many wrong decisions and choices. I had married before I graduated high school, and in the same year that I married I divorced, graduated high school, and did drugs, crack, that I quit when I divorced. Which was only a God thing because without Him I would not have made it off of that stuff. I eventually moved out and into another bad situation and continued drinking among other thngs that I did not need to be doing. I was looking for love in all the wrong places; When I needed to run to Jesus and let him love me. I thought that if I did what the guys wanted they would like me, what a lie. I ended up feeling worse and worse. I found out I was pregnant and considered many options but thank God decided to keep Megan. Then from there my life just started getting better and better. I met Paul, and he came into my life at just the right time. We married when Megan was just 3 months old and he accepted her as his own and ended up adopting her. He is the true Dad in this case. Anyone can father a child it takes a man to be a Dad. God has taken one broken messed up woman and made me whole and complete. He has told me that I would forget the shame of my youth and as in the other blog "New Beginnigns" it has happened. He is an amazing God. I Love the Lord with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. I am still a work in progress and have not arrived by no means BUT I am most assuredly not the woman that I was. I have walked through many a dark nights of my soul BUT Joy does come in the morning.

Yesterday, I believe, was a new beginning of the new things God is doing in my life. I was obedient to what God asked me to do and it was a very tough week last week; which always is when your getting close to Victory... I know that God is doing marvelous, amazing things in my life as well as my husband and girls. I don't know what He has in store BUT I know that He is in control and it will be exceedingly, abundantly, above and beyond all that I could ask or think according to the power that works on the inside of me. Satan tried really hard to stop me from proceeding forward but he is a defeated foe and a liar.



I know that I have not arrived yet and am a work in process BUT I Thank My God that I am not where I used to be. He promised me in His word that I would not be ashamed or disgraced and that I would forget the shame of my youth. I believe that day has finally arrived which has been long awaited and prayed for.



Maybe you are reading this and you have been praying and waiting on God may I encourage you to press through the pain. His word tells us that this present suffering cannot be compared to the glory that will be revealed in us. (paraphrased in my words) It may seem as though you have waited and waited, but know that God's timing is perfect and that He wants to change you and mold you into His likeness. Humble yourself under His mighty hand and He will exalt you in due time. Be obedient to all that He is asking of you no matter what it may be and no matter how hard; press through and remember that your battle is fought on your knees and Victory will come. It is worth every tear and every bit of the pain. He will give you beauty for ashes and the oil of joy for mourning. Weeping may endure for the night but joy comes in the morning. I have been going through a dark night of my soul for a long time and the Lord keeps reassuring me that He will come with a vengenace and a recompense to save because He is Mighty to save. It is not fun the chastening and the valley's that we walk through, but they are for a reason filtered through our Loving Father's hands. He will not put more on us than we can handle no matter what it seems like. Have (true) friends that you can express your feelings to and that will listen to you and not condemn you and pray with you (p.u.s.h. Pray Until Something Happens)



God Bless

Sandra