Mtdrew33's Blog

Alright-To what degree do you write a blog? If you asked me this question, lets say-3 or so years ago-I would have said, "Write about everything and anything" May it be true or false..just write, write, write. Back in those days, I was in the mist of getting my life straightened out with God and working on my character defects....OK, just because I said I was working on them then, doesnt mean I am not working on them now. I believe we'll be working on ourselves until the good lord calls us home or he decides to grab us in the air..either way, I'll be working on myself. We all will be working on ourselves!





I was trying to figure out how should I work this blog. Should I be honest about my situation as a Christian who has a chronic illness/disease? How should I work this to show the glory of God in my life? It came to me...I'll just be myself. That's the best way to show the work of the lord in my life.



I tend to ramble about the same things in my life-but include new things as well, so for many, this might be boring or repetitive. I can't spell-so reading my blog can be challenging..If you are not up for a challenge, please do not read my blog! *LOL*



I love spell check (But do not use it all the time) this site doesnt have it! So it will be fun to see how these entries turn out.



I do not reread every entry I do for others to read, so there is no telling how the thoughts can come across..but if you have a question about something, please let me know! :)



I am a simple guy who has some complex situations in my life..I used to see them as curses, but not anymore. I feel blessed by these things in my life. I mean, you can look at things with a negitive viewpoint or see them as positive things...and since I know God turns things for good for those who love him, I count all things in my life joy! AMEN!!



I get down every blue moon; you'll never really find me in a bad mood unless I am a little under the weather... like today. SINUS TROUBLE!

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It's truly my desire to stay at arms length of the Lord!



Why do I want to stay 'AT ARMS LENGTH' to Jesus? It's because of Peter walking towards him on the water. Jesus grabbed him when he fell into the waves; sinking.



So whatever you do in life, remember..Stay in arms reach of Jesus..this way he can grab you when soemthing goes south as Peter did!



I do have to add, we wouldnt have this story of Peter and JEsus on the water if Peter would have trusted Christ. You know, he believed in Jesus..he just didnt trust him wholeheartedly. THat is where we go wrong in life sometimes, you know.



I'm out of here for tonight. Trying to decide if I should go to sleep or get busy with some reading I have for homework..undecided. This is where you say--W.W.J.D.?

Nyt.

Ok-before I get started on this topic, I need to state something:

Before you make a comment under a video, anywhere online, do not go with the flow of the other comments below the video before you place a comment. The video could be totally different than the conversation below it. Thus, if you leave a comment-it can make you look like a complete idoit for not understanding the video.

It is true, I can be a little airy sometime. No, I do not have blonde hair nor do I plan on dying it that color. I might act blonde from time to time, but God still loves me.



I think sometimes it is a God given gift really. Why would I think being blonde is a God given gift? Its because you have no clue what you are doing-and if you did do something, you did it because you thought it was a good idea! Thus, others look to see if you have blonde hair or possible highlights. I do not.

Now, if you have blond hair and you are reading this, I do not want you to feel alone. I understand your pain.

Of course this is all said in fun, of course-but I am not joking about the comment deal tho. I placed a comment under a really strong and powerful clip online. The video was actually really good! But when I first watched the video, I was reading the comments below it-and gettin bits and pieces of clip. I couldnt believe the political views of this vid! So I put a comment underneath it thinking I was defending someone who has done a lot for people! I respect the dude that's what I am saying. Well, I said this and said that. Thinking I was actually defending the guy... hoping others would think twice about writing neg about this gentleman

For a week or so, the comment hung around my page and of course, underneath the clip.

Well, I logged on tonight and thought I might watch this clip again...so I did!

To my shock and awe! When I paid attention to the clip this time (not reading the comments below) the vid took on a different light.



As I watched the clip, my heart dropped! I couldnt believe I wrote what I did!(LOL)

I thought the video was talking neg. about this dude-when in reality, it was giving the guy praise! MAN! My comment made me look like a hater, no doubt! And that is not what I was trying to get across!

I should be used to this by now, I mean, I have done stuff like this my whole life.



I could blame it on my A.D.D. or maybe I could blame it on my genes(family histroy), if I think hard enough I can maybe state that it is due to all the years of doing drugs-or I can just say that I'm blonde. The truth of the matter is this, I just did not pay attention. I cant read and watch something at the same time! I am not multi-tasked. I mean, I can-but I get too distracted easily. Anyway, the meaning behind this entry..is PLEASE do not embarrass yourself with comments if you havent watched a video. Do not let comments throw you off while you are watching something. Or you might get e-mails, comments on your own page, or whatever later on. This wasnt major or anything-THANK GOD! But it does make you think about what you might put under comments. It actually makes me think about comments I've written in the past but can not go back and change. Thinking to myself, "What if those comments didnt go with the vid either and I was misunderstood?" *LOL* Geee's!

I've never gotten messages saying something was wrong accept tonight, which is good! I was able to make the correction.

Oh well-we live and we learn. God bless you guys Nyt!

First and foremost-I am a bible believing Christian-2ndly to that, I AM A HYPER CHRISTIAN!!!!!!!! AN A.D.D. type of Christian!

One that wants others to know about Christ and what he has done for all of us!

Sure, we have made all kinds of crazy mistakes in the past, but with Christ, we can overcome those bondages..if it's drugs or any other form of bondage, we can break free of those negitive things which keep us distant from God!

I use to look at my hyper activity as a neg. thing, but it's not! It a God given energy that has blessed me in many ways!

In fact, at the age of 33, my A.D.D. has gotten me to the front of my college classroom! Yep, sure has! I am front and centered at the dry board!

The Instructor noticed I got side tracked by watching others from the back of the room-so she is moving me to the front of the classroom for the 2nd summer term of Algebra!

Now, where else could I get that kind of treatment in life? Having A.D.D. can be a good thing!!!!!!!!!

When standing in line to pay for something, I have to wait in the back of the line. They do not call me up to the front of the line while I'm looking around at the people in front of me and in back of me... asking, "What is taking so long?" when it has probably been like 1 minutes.

So being a christian with A.D.D. isn't all bad-jsut waiting in those lines is a pain at times-<br />

I felt so honored and special when she told me about my special seat! Now, I'll just have to look behind me, not just to the front anymore!

It is the end of my 1st term of the summer-Just got done with my final yesterday, not sure if I passed the course to be honest with you cause math is my weakest subject..But if I passed the final with a "C" or better, I am on to the second round of this math course. Which I think I made it, cause the Instructor was telling me where to seat for the 2nd intensive term of the summer! If I pass College Al. this intensive...I'll BE ALGEBRA FREEEEEEEEEEE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE! PRAISE GOD!!!!! This will be as big as Moses parting the Red Sea to me, if I pass this Al. course!

I give thanks to the Lord for guiding me and showing me a new way of life! AMEN! I wouldn't be in school if it wasn't for his direction in my life! A lot of prayers is the reason I am here today! I give you ultimate Praise my lord Jesus!

Im out of here-time to hit hte bed! This A.D.D. Christian is tired! God bless

Alright, so I have been a member of Godtube.com for awhile now-and never posted a blog on here. I've just been kicking back enjoying all the videos I see on here and I never really thought about doing a blog on Godtube.com, until tonight.
Not sure what I am going to write on this entry (most likely not much) but I want to get my feet wet on this one entry here.
I have to admit, I have learned so much by viewing clips and listening to pastors and Preachers on here. It has been informitive and extremely interesting learning about the bible on line. I sometimes have questions about things, and at times, I can find a few of the answers on here..which has helped me with my growing process with God.

Since I do not have any personal friends reading this entry on here-I figure I will make this pretty general.

I am a 33 yr. old guy who is completely and totally blessed by the Lord Jesus Christ. I belong to a ministry called Celebrate Recovery and have been apart of the ministry going on two years strong in May. I've known about C.R. for nearly three years and actually went to it for a few months and walked away from it. I did build some connections with the people there before I walked away from it back in 9/05, but returned May 6th of 2006. Ever since that Friday night meeting in 2006, that May evening, I have never left-Being that I never left and I enjoyed what God was doing with t he program, they made me a leader (I just kept on coming back on Friday nights-they didn't know what to do with me, so they put me to work*LOL*)

The Lord has done some incredible things in my life in the past few years. After years of drug use and dealing with past pains dealing with many different issues, God finally came into my life. One of the first things I've learned is anyone can believe in God, but not everyone can be a Christian. Christ isn't just a name, Christ is who you are. Jesus paid a price for us-not did he just pay a price, but he lived to understand our struggles as well. He understands our loss', he understands our grief, God understands the hurts, he also understands what it feels like to be abandoned.

God cares and he cares so much that he will try anything to get our attention. It is us, as ourselves, that deny the Lord access into our lives. He'll try over and over to get us to listen to him, and we understand this, but for some, they tune him out. That is what I did for years,most of my life-but I did know one thing GOD IS GOD.
Jesus was born and died for our sins...that I never forgot, I just didn't understand that God was a lifestyle. Christ is all we are. Christ is a savior, a brother and a father. HE is a comforter, and creator and healer.

After many years of drug use, and going places I should have never been, the Lord reached for me and I shrudded his hand away. I didn't want to change who I had been. I wanted to control who I was...in many ways,
Then suddenly, out of nowhere-a year after I stopped using Meth and other party drugs, I found out I was HIV+.A year nearly to the date of when I told the Lord I would change my lifestyle, I found out that my life was about to change all over again.

I was a learning disability student who learned self hopelessness, I was a drop out who didn't believe I would ever amount to anything unless someone could make me into something, I felt worthless, I moved all over the south east and ventured up state, I lived in many places just trying to run from all I had become. I dealt with sexual abuse as a child and covered it up with an alternitive lifestyle which drove me more into a darkened world of self loothing and confusion. I was suicidual and completely a mess. I was lost and God kept on calling me to him, but I didn't think he would be able to do much for me. No one else could help me in the manner I needed, I mean, I couldn't even help myself-how could someone else do something differnet for me. What could God do differenlty that I hadn't already tried.

Finally, God took hold of my situation because I couldn't bare life anymore! I was useless, toxic, I had always done things the wrong way, and I was a disappointment to the ones who cared most for me.

That night I returned to C.R.-I heard a song..a song called, "Above all". God met me right were I was that night...that night I finally understood that GOd did understand me. HE did knwo what I felt. God was really bigger than me..and finally, I opened my heart SLOWLY to him, it was open for invite for the very first time in a long time. I welcomed him, but I was still lost and I felt completely alone (that was the lie of the devil right there)

Prior to the week of my diagnoses, God had everything already lined up for me before the bottom dropped out on my life.

He had placed a church in my life and also a support group that had no real knowledge on how to deal with a sitatuion such as mine. But they learned from me as I learned from them. God taught us all a new way to see his glory in a time like this,

Now, because of the Lord Christ, I have gone onto college-(working towards a degree right now),I attend church and belong to this wonderful ministry that the Lord had planned for me to be apart of before my understanding of it.

God is a designer of many things and if your life is out of control, he can rebuild it and make it new. He designed you for great things in this world-His purpose for you is incredible, we just have got to stop being so selfish about what WE think is best for us.
What we think life should be is usually different than what God wants it to be..as I have found out.

I wouldn't wish my situation on anyone at all...but now that I have to deal with the seeds I've sown, Christ is turning them into beautiful flowers that are blooming with grace and love! AMEN!

There isn't a sitatuion that Christ hasn't heard of before. What we see as shameful, God wants you to turn it over so he can take that away from you. That he can allow you to learn from it so it can be used for his glory. Satan will use whatever he can to destory you as an individual or a family/friend. He will try to take everything you have (your soul) and devior you. God doesn't want that because he made you in his image. He made you for his glory-not for distruction. So whatever the hurt, whatever the pain, whatever the disease, what ever the sin, God will take you and allow your past to be past. He will grab your hand and left you out of the water; he'll put you back on the boat again.
He will place your house on solid rock, he will finally call your name and write it in the book of life, if you reach out to him and ask him to help you in whatever sitatuion you are in. He is in business to change lives-not to forget about them.

God is good-he is gentle and he is peace.

Do not run from him, do not run from yourself. Do not try to ignore him, do not try to pretend-God knows it all. He knows the hurt and pain. He understand the suffering because he suffered for us.

Pain, he understands more than we could ever realize.

He wants to save us from the destruction of this world. He wants to save us from the distruction of our souls. Away from God is torture inside our hearts. It might be anger, strive, it could be jelious, hatred, loneliness, or it could be the unrest in your life. It could be any of those things or more that can keep you from real peace...but Christ wants to hand it over and give you true and worhty love.

He wants us to ask for him as we would want someone to ask for us.

He is the only one who can change our lives.

He does it through people, he can do it through anything he chooses. God is god, but he gives us a choice.

For many years, I didn't want God's help..but later, I finally understood his compassion and grace he had been offering me all along. I just had to say, "Lord, this is too much for me! Take it, please!"- That is where the healing began.

Was this an easy thing to do in my life? No, it wasn't. But I understood that it was going to be worth it if I just let him lead me in my life.

I found out that when God says, "Come as you are" he really means, Come as you are. Sure, you are not going to be perfect..not then and surely not now..but I came as I was two years ago, and the process started.

He would take one thing away from me, then another-slowly and in his timing, I grew and became stronger and foudn much peace and confidence in myself that I had never had before. The world started to look like I place I wanted to be because of Christ loving and caring deeply for me and my needs. He changed who I was and who I was becoming. The process is continuous, and things keep on changing.

The Lord is more than we could ever imagine-he is mighty and wonderful.

I have come to learn that if others in your life doubt who you are or what you are about-if they are truly walking with the Lord, then when that great day comes when we are all standing together at the dinner table, God will shine his light on you and share your great and beautiful story on how he worked his miracles in you.

So if doubt comes to others while you are in the mist of your change in Christ, do not be offended by it-but believe that when the christians gather in heaven together, truths will be known and enterinty will be set for us all. Little concerns of what others may think of you, shouldn't be a concern at all-it gets in the way of the fathers work. We must be about our fathers business! AMEN!

God bless you and I hope this gives encouragement. God Cares. believe it and know it. Call on him. HE will be the strength needed in your life.

Chad Andrew