Janudan's Blog

The last time that I was in school I literally hated it. I thought that it was a waste of my time and I didnt fit in, yet I tried my best to and I didnt like that feeling. So after I graduated I didnt have an interest in going to College like the rest of my fellow class mates were doing. Instede I got a job at Social Services and I stayed there for 5 years. But i wasnt being fufilled. My oldest sister went back to school and my little brother had just graduated from highschool and was off to college, it seemed as it every one was doing something but me. Then my mom was like why dont you go back to school, the thought scared me! I didnt think I was smart enough to go back. Then my oldest sister said to me that she went back to school so she could be smarter than me. I was surprised, she said that I always know things or how something works. I had forgotten that after my school days thats really when I took and interest in learning, I watch the Discovery channel like it's going out of style and other educational channels. I prayed that God would make a way for me to go to college and guess what, He did I received a scholarship and I start Jan.12. I'm exicted and I cant wait to see how all of this will turn out. All I know is that I'm trusting God all the way!

These are the words that appeared on a church's marque that I was passing while going to my sisters house, and I was like WOW. After you think about it I've been pointing alot of fingers lately and havent been trying to hold out a hand or even think of praying for someone. I think that we are all tempted in some point in our lives where we are more like the world, were just going with the flow. And its so easy to do that when you have shows like TMZ and Extra, reporting the latest news on our favorite or least favorite calebrities. I myself have turned my nose up at the latest gossip I've heared about Paris Hilton or Mariah Carey. It sort of feels good to talk about someone else when your not in that situation. But as I read that marque and actually let the words sink in I felt horrible. I had not been doing my job as a christian(and it is a job believe it or not) and from that point on I decided that I would try praying for those less fortunate, or have not yet received God into their lives. After all I would want a hand held out to me for help rather than a finger to judge.

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood! Finally the rain has ceased, and I can finally bust out my flip flops, and tank tops. I am writting because I had a dream Saturday night and It kind of freaked me out. I'm always having dreams and my mom is usually the one that I tell them to because she will interprit the dream for me. But reacently I have been able to interprit my own dreams. Its not somthing that I tell everyone because I don't want anyone to come to me with some dream that they have had, and them wanting me to tell them what it means; I mean that is a big resonsibility and I dont know it I can handle it. Anyway the way that I interprited the dream and the way my mom Interprited the dream were different. So what to I do? I dont know whether to go with my gut felling (which is saying that something big is about to happen), or if I should receive what my mom has to say. I would love some good advice because I'm torn at this point!

Yup you guessed it, it's raining........ again, but I'm learning to deal with my hair being frizzy and the bottoms of my jeans being contantly soaked and I belive that my arms are getting stronger from holding an umbrella all day; so I guess some good is coming out of it. The good news is that this past sunday a woman was healed at my church. Now I always look at Binny Hinn and the people who are healed from that experience, But I've never seen it in the flesh. So Sunday morning after we had Praise and Worship a member from my church came in and she brought her mother with her. Her mom was hooked up to an oxygen tank and she could hardly walk. Toward the end of the services she came to the front of the church so that my pastor could pray for her, and as he was praying for her she snatched the oxygen tubes out of her nose and started walking around normally. Everyone was crying and praising God. And she told the church that she had really bad lungs and she could hardly walk and her doctor didnt see any room for improvement. Well she not only walked out of the church but someone else was dragging the oxygen tank behind them. God is so awesome! To everyone Stay Blessed!

Oh my gosh, it has been raining for five straight days now and I got to tell you its starting to drive me crazy. I was thinking how on earth can it rain this long with no sign of slacking. I see it when I wake up in the morning and I see it when I'm going to bed at night. And every morning I would look out the window and think what an ugly day. That's when God started to speak to me, He had woken me up with my life my health and my strength, I had a roof over my head, clothes on my back, food on my table, my family was in tack and I couldnt deal with a little rain, that was going to replenish the earth that we are trying so hard to destroy. I was dumb founded. Needless to say I readjusted my priorites. Now on a rainy day I still see it as a gorgeous day. Thank you God for opening my eyes to your many wonders!