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Hey! My name is Steven and Im from Flint, Michigan! I've always been into Church, but didnt experience God (like the real deal) till the 8th grade. I've backslid since then and then gotten back on track and backslid again. That pattern seems to happen alot for me. Living for God for me hasent been easy. I struggle with Homo%%$@uality and no longer hide it, I keep it real if asked. I sometimes feel that if I didnt have these feelings my Christian walk with God wouldnt be so hard..idk...ITS JUST SO HARD! Its something i've cryed about for years..Many times I wanted to give up and say Lord forget it!! But Im like scared to give up and plus I just dont like giving up. But umm I could go on and on with this, from suicidle thoughts to hating myself, asking God why me, to dealing with family when it comes to this issue. This is one thing that seems to have a hold on me so strongly :( I know God has a awesome plan for my life. I love to dance as well as write music. Add the youtube page plz to check me out more, i'll be posting vids there in a bit. http://www.youtube.com/Flinttastic......But yeah..Im a very layed back guy with so much hurt on the inside of me sighs..God is good all the time! I believe that to a T, and im so thankful for what God has done for us by dieing upon the cross...But to be soo realll...Its hard, its sooooo hard...I really dont like to sound like im complaining, I should be saying something like, I struggle with this or that, but I know God is gonna take care of it and so on. But again to be real, its something I kinda want to have :( and at the same time have Jesus in my heart, Part of me want it and Part of me dont since God dont agree. But yeah...I told the Lord I give 2009 to him and want him to use me as he pleases as I grow in him giving him my all. PLEASE BE PRAYING FOR ME!