Getting pass fear and unbelief
Written by BoazandtheBand
Posted on Monday, September 29, 2008 at 01:11 AM.
First of all I have to say I am not one who prays for or chases signs and miracles. Matter of fact I am hesitating to write this but I believe the Lord leads me to write this. I love the Lord and I love people.
I am sure most of us can relate to this. Understand that It does not have to be about healing, but I can not understand why it is so difficult for me to pray for healing or anything for a complete stranger. When I hear the prompting in my heart to pray for someone I donât know I have to say, I will most likely pray in silence. Or go home in my quiet and safe place to pray.
Several days ago I thought the Lord wanted me to stand in a park in Seattle to offer prayer for healing. I have to say after a series of prayer and fasting I was eventually given the courage to do it. May be the right thing to say I was given the faith to do it. No one stepped up to the offering of prayer for healing. And as I reflected on the whole thing I realize that what little faith I had took me that far which was good.
Although I was able to stand up and offer healing to anyone, I was still going through the nerves rattling inside. Knowing that I was nervous has me questioning my level of faith and belief in the Lord.
I know the Lord heals because I was at work one day taking care of a patient who had been in physical therapy for three months. The Lord led me to pray for her and she was healed. The doctor the following day released her back to work. Granted not everyone I pray for, receives healing instantly but that one time I can say this person did. Another time was during a worship service the presence of the Holy Spirit was there. And I donât say that about every worship service but this one I knew he was. The following day a friend calls me to tell me his mother had receive healing that night. Something to do with her eyes I really do not know the exact details other than she was having difficulty seeing.
After writing this I do not understand why it is so hard for me to stand on a street corner and offer prayer for healing to anyone when I know the Lord told me to do it.
Lord can you please give me and others who have a similar struggle more wisdom to understand the things you call us to do. Lord please, continue to prompt us according to your will.
Fan into Flame!! Boaz
Just want to let you know i have had the same thoughts previously in my walk with God. You are correct in believing that God wants you to lay hands on the sick and pray for healing. We are to do the same work that Jesus did. The struggle is simply the devil. The word says that if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, you can say...But is the one thing that can contaminate your faith? It is fear. Just as God uses faith to do things the devil uses fear. the word says that faith works by love, and perfected love cast out all fear. There is a reason for that. If the devil can get fear mixed in with your faith, you will fail most of the time, but if you can become so full of the word of God and the Love of God, then your faith can not fail. I am blessed by your willingness to be obedient to God. You have to remember that the Lord needs to know he can trust you. He may have simply asked you to go to see if you would listen. I encourage you be faithful in the litte things and he will promote you to greater things as he proves you faithful. In the mean time fill yourself up with the word of God. Meditate in the word night and day. If he has given you a passion for seeing people healed then meditate in those scriptures. see yourself laying hands on people and them getting well. and last but not least. Remember dont get discouraged when someone doesnt receive their healing. When you lay hands on someone the healing power of God always comes...it is just simply not always received. We cant make others received there healing but we can impart what we have been given. Be blessed my brother....Pastor Joel