4clamb's Blog

who am i,what am i supposed to do.i work and support my family the best i can.raise my children with love and support.provide a home.then one day my pay is cut in half,lose my home,few months later lose my job,then my family.i had custody of my child,i had to let her stay with her mother because i became homeless.(mother married 7 times)five after me.14 years i raised her and my step daughter,never any help from the mother.my daughter has been with mother for 8 months now and im 7000.00 $in rears for child support.i dont understand.(mother is separated from last husband)21 years at last job.unemployed over 7 months now.benefits gone.savings gone,am i less than a man now?if i shoot myself does satan win?(my kid would get my social security)p.s.hundreds of jobs applied for,most paying close to min.wage(im 48 )over qualifed.God i dont know where to go or what to do.im sure there are thousands here in michigan that feel the same way.p.s.s.i have never been in trouble in my life with the law,im terribly afraid i will go to jail for the support thing.how crazy is life?what is a man?i dont think i know.